1 00:03:54,851 --> 00:03:56,876 What did they say? 2 00:03:56,953 --> 00:03:59,285 Did you speak to the real estate... 3 00:03:59,355 --> 00:04:00,947 Where is she? 4 00:04:01,024 --> 00:04:03,288 Well, well. Where are her notes? 5 00:04:03,359 --> 00:04:05,793 The notes we took with her. 6 00:04:05,862 --> 00:04:07,727 I took the notes? 7 00:04:07,797 --> 00:04:09,662 I don't think so. 8 00:04:09,732 --> 00:04:14,635 No. We aren't going to lose the house. 9 00:04:16,005 --> 00:04:20,442 Look, I'm not minimizing it. 10 00:04:22,278 --> 00:04:24,212 The easement? 11 00:04:24,280 --> 00:04:27,647 Did she say easement? What did she say? 12 00:04:29,285 --> 00:04:31,651 Is it a term of art? 13 00:04:32,789 --> 00:04:35,223 Are we bound by it? 14 00:04:35,291 --> 00:04:38,727 I'm sorry. Are we... 15 00:04:38,795 --> 00:04:41,730 Yes. Bound by it. 16 00:04:41,798 --> 00:04:43,231 Look. Look. 17 00:04:43,299 --> 00:04:46,735 Before the other side goes home, all right? 18 00:04:46,803 --> 00:04:48,634 A term of art. 19 00:04:49,806 --> 00:04:52,741 Because. That's right. 20 00:04:52,809 --> 00:04:56,404 The yard for the boy. That's the whole... 21 00:04:56,479 --> 00:04:59,710 I'll meet you there. Is the realtor there? 22 00:04:59,782 --> 00:05:01,943 Tell her to show you the basement again. 23 00:05:02,018 --> 00:05:06,250 Look at the... I'm leaving in 10 or 15. 24 00:05:06,322 --> 00:05:10,759 Yes. No, no. I'll meet you at the new house. 25 00:05:10,827 --> 00:05:14,820 That's a good... If he thinks it's necessary. 26 00:05:15,999 --> 00:05:18,866 You tell Jerry to meet, all right? 27 00:05:18,935 --> 00:05:23,531 No, we aren't going to lose the deposit, all right? 28 00:05:23,606 --> 00:05:26,871 I'm sure it's going to be fine. 29 00:05:26,943 --> 00:05:28,342 I love you, too. 30 00:05:28,411 --> 00:05:30,845 I love you, too. 31 00:05:30,914 --> 00:05:32,313 I will. 32 00:05:34,017 --> 00:05:35,382 All right. 33 00:05:35,451 --> 00:05:38,318 What is a term of art? 34 00:05:39,789 --> 00:05:43,247 - I'm sorry? - What is a term of art? 35 00:05:45,061 --> 00:05:46,892 Is that what you want to talk about? 36 00:05:46,963 --> 00:05:48,089 To talk about? 37 00:05:48,164 --> 00:05:50,724 Let's take the mysticism out of it, shall we, Carol? 38 00:05:50,800 --> 00:05:52,563 Don't you think? I'll tell you. 39 00:05:52,635 --> 00:05:55,661 When you have some thing which must be broached... 40 00:05:55,738 --> 00:05:58,730 Don't I think? Did I... 41 00:05:58,808 --> 00:06:00,742 Did I say something wrong? 42 00:06:00,810 --> 00:06:03,244 No. I'm sorry. No. 43 00:06:03,313 --> 00:06:05,747 You're right. I'm somewhat rushed, as you see. 44 00:06:05,815 --> 00:06:07,578 I'm very sorry. You're right. 45 00:06:07,650 --> 00:06:09,584 What is a term of art? 46 00:06:09,652 --> 00:06:13,418 It seems to mean a term which has come through its use... 47 00:06:13,489 --> 00:06:17,016 to mean something more specific than the words would... 48 00:06:17,093 --> 00:06:19,653 to someone not acquainted with them, indicate. 49 00:06:19,729 --> 00:06:21,473 That, I believe, is what a term of art would mean. 50 00:06:21,497 --> 00:06:22,930 You don't know what it means. 51 00:06:22,999 --> 00:06:25,467 I'm not sure I know what it means. 52 00:06:25,535 --> 00:06:28,333 It's one of those things that you look them up... 53 00:06:28,404 --> 00:06:30,429 or have someone explain them to you... 54 00:06:30,506 --> 00:06:32,736 you say "Aha," and then you immediately forget. 55 00:06:32,809 --> 00:06:34,777 You don't do that. 56 00:06:34,844 --> 00:06:36,778 - Forget things? - Yes. 57 00:06:36,846 --> 00:06:38,324 - Everybody does that. - No, they don't. 58 00:06:38,348 --> 00:06:39,781 - They don't? - No. 59 00:06:39,849 --> 00:06:42,215 - Everybody does that. - Why would they do that? 60 00:06:42,285 --> 00:06:44,150 I don't know. 61 00:06:44,220 --> 00:06:46,347 Because it doesn't interest them. 62 00:06:46,422 --> 00:06:47,946 No. 63 00:06:48,024 --> 00:06:49,457 I think so, though. 64 00:06:49,525 --> 00:06:51,049 I'm sorry that I was distracted. 65 00:06:51,127 --> 00:06:52,526 You don't have to say that to me. 66 00:06:52,595 --> 00:06:55,223 You paid me the compliment, or the obeisance... 67 00:06:55,298 --> 00:06:56,595 of coming in here. 68 00:06:58,101 --> 00:07:01,593 All right. Sit down, please. 69 00:07:01,617 --> 00:07:04,617 chebinhdan.com 70 00:07:06,509 --> 00:07:10,070 Carol, I find that I am at a standstill. 71 00:07:10,146 --> 00:07:11,579 - I find... - What? 72 00:07:11,647 --> 00:07:14,844 One moment. In regard to your... 73 00:07:14,917 --> 00:07:16,748 You're buying a new house. 74 00:07:16,819 --> 00:07:20,016 - No, let's get on with it. - Get on? 75 00:07:20,089 --> 00:07:22,751 Believe me, I know how potentially humiliating these... 76 00:07:22,825 --> 00:07:26,784 I have no desire other than to help you. 77 00:07:26,863 --> 00:07:29,024 But... I won't even say but. 78 00:07:29,098 --> 00:07:30,929 I'll say, as I go back... 79 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:34,094 - I'm just trying... - No. It will not do. 80 00:07:34,170 --> 00:07:36,968 - What will not do? - Your work. 81 00:07:37,040 --> 00:07:39,133 I sit in class. I take notes. 82 00:07:39,208 --> 00:07:40,641 Yes, I understand. 83 00:07:40,710 --> 00:07:43,076 What I'm trying to tell you is that some basic... 84 00:07:43,146 --> 00:07:45,546 One moment. Some basic missed communication... 85 00:07:45,615 --> 00:07:47,708 I'm doing what I'm told. I bought your book. 86 00:07:47,784 --> 00:07:49,012 No, I'm sure you... 87 00:07:49,085 --> 00:07:52,077 I'm doing what I'm told. It's difficult for me. 88 00:07:52,155 --> 00:07:54,055 - Lots of the language... - Please. 89 00:07:54,123 --> 00:07:55,715 The language... The things that you say. 90 00:07:55,792 --> 00:07:58,022 I'm sorry, no. I don't think that that's true. 91 00:07:58,094 --> 00:08:00,585 It is true. Why would I... 92 00:08:00,663 --> 00:08:02,096 I'll tell you why. 93 00:08:02,165 --> 00:08:03,894 You're an incredibly bright girl. 94 00:08:03,966 --> 00:08:06,230 No! You're an incredibly bright girl. 95 00:08:06,302 --> 00:08:09,499 You have no problem with... No. I'll... 96 00:08:09,572 --> 00:08:11,563 Who's kidding who here? 97 00:08:11,641 --> 00:08:14,075 I'll tell you why. 98 00:08:14,143 --> 00:08:15,576 I think you're angry. 99 00:08:15,645 --> 00:08:17,909 - Why would I... - Wait one moment. 100 00:08:17,980 --> 00:08:19,504 It is true. I have problems. 101 00:08:19,582 --> 00:08:20,742 Everybody... 102 00:08:20,817 --> 00:08:23,479 I come from a different social, a different economic... 103 00:08:23,553 --> 00:08:26,989 - When I came to this school... - Yes, quite. 104 00:08:28,424 --> 00:08:30,358 Does that mean nothing? 105 00:08:30,426 --> 00:08:33,361 Look, look... Here, please. Sit down. 106 00:08:35,598 --> 00:08:36,826 Sit down. 107 00:08:54,484 --> 00:08:56,918 "I think that the ideas contained in this work... 108 00:08:56,986 --> 00:08:59,477 "express the author's feelings in a way that he intended... 109 00:08:59,555 --> 00:09:01,318 "based on his results." 110 00:09:03,793 --> 00:09:06,728 What can that mean? Do you see? 111 00:09:06,796 --> 00:09:08,229 The best that I... 112 00:09:08,297 --> 00:09:09,855 I'm saying that perhaps this course... 113 00:09:09,932 --> 00:09:11,422 No, no, no, you can't. 114 00:09:11,501 --> 00:09:13,662 - How? Carol! - I have to pass it. 115 00:09:13,736 --> 00:09:16,068 - I have to pass this course. - Well, either... 116 00:09:16,139 --> 00:09:19,472 Either the criteria for judging progress in the class... 117 00:09:19,542 --> 00:09:21,442 No, no, no! I have to pass it. 118 00:09:21,511 --> 00:09:22,773 Now, look, I'm a human being... 119 00:09:22,845 --> 00:09:24,107 I did what you told me. 120 00:09:24,180 --> 00:09:26,705 I did everything. I read your book. 121 00:09:26,782 --> 00:09:28,647 You told me to buy your book and read it. 122 00:09:28,718 --> 00:09:30,913 Everything you say, I do. 123 00:09:30,987 --> 00:09:32,420 - Look. - Everything I'm told. 124 00:09:32,488 --> 00:09:35,286 I'm not your father. 125 00:09:36,626 --> 00:09:40,756 What? Did I say you were my father? 126 00:09:40,830 --> 00:09:43,526 - No. - Why did you say that? 127 00:09:43,599 --> 00:09:45,567 Why did you say that to me? 128 00:10:06,255 --> 00:10:09,122 Hello. Yes. Jerry. 129 00:10:09,192 --> 00:10:11,217 I know what time it is. 130 00:10:11,294 --> 00:10:14,695 Yes, I'm trying to get out of here, believe me. 131 00:10:14,764 --> 00:10:17,824 Why do we need these notes? 132 00:10:19,936 --> 00:10:22,905 You're right. I'm going to find my notes. 133 00:10:26,776 --> 00:10:29,711 I'll be there in ten minutes. 134 00:10:46,729 --> 00:10:49,493 What is it you would have me do? 135 00:10:49,565 --> 00:10:51,658 We are two people, all right? 136 00:10:51,734 --> 00:10:54,999 Both of whom have subscribed to certain arbitrary... 137 00:10:55,071 --> 00:10:56,402 You have to help me. 138 00:10:56,472 --> 00:10:59,635 Certain institutional forms. That's right. 139 00:10:59,709 --> 00:11:02,701 You may say they are false or arbitrary. 140 00:11:02,778 --> 00:11:05,303 - You have to help me. - Excuse me one moment, please. 141 00:11:05,381 --> 00:11:07,849 - You have to help me. - Excuse me. 142 00:11:09,652 --> 00:11:13,588 I've had a long day, and it is not over yet. 143 00:11:13,656 --> 00:11:15,180 That's not your problem. I understand. 144 00:11:15,258 --> 00:11:18,455 - You have to help me. - What do you want me to do? 145 00:11:18,527 --> 00:11:20,239 How can I go back and tell them the grades... 146 00:11:20,263 --> 00:11:23,528 I'm sorry for you. I am. 147 00:11:23,599 --> 00:11:25,760 There is... you're right... 148 00:11:25,835 --> 00:11:29,293 a harshness in the methodology of grading. 149 00:11:29,372 --> 00:11:32,307 But we have accepted it, both of us. 150 00:11:32,375 --> 00:11:33,569 And for better or worse... 151 00:11:33,643 --> 00:11:37,272 we must abide by the system which we have chosen... 152 00:11:37,346 --> 00:11:39,314 don't you think? 153 00:11:39,382 --> 00:11:42,317 I think so. I thank you for coming in. 154 00:11:42,385 --> 00:11:44,062 If you'd like to reschedule an appointment... 155 00:11:44,086 --> 00:11:45,430 with my office for a future time... 156 00:11:45,454 --> 00:11:48,150 I'd be happy to talk with you then. Thank you. 157 00:12:30,633 --> 00:12:32,430 What do you want me to do? 158 00:12:32,501 --> 00:12:35,527 Teach me. I want you to teach me. 159 00:12:35,604 --> 00:12:38,072 - I tried to teach you. - I read your book. 160 00:12:38,140 --> 00:12:40,074 - You don't understand it. - No. 161 00:12:40,142 --> 00:12:41,700 Perhaps it's not well written. 162 00:12:41,777 --> 00:12:44,337 No, no. I want to understand it. 163 00:12:44,413 --> 00:12:46,074 What don't you understand? 164 00:12:46,148 --> 00:12:48,673 Any of it. 165 00:12:48,751 --> 00:12:52,016 What you're trying to say when you talk about... 166 00:12:52,088 --> 00:12:53,419 Yes? 167 00:12:53,489 --> 00:12:56,720 "Virtual warehousing of the young." 168 00:12:56,792 --> 00:12:58,851 Virtual warehousing of the young. 169 00:12:58,928 --> 00:13:01,522 If we artificially prolong adolescence... 170 00:13:01,597 --> 00:13:04,088 And about the curse of modern education. 171 00:13:04,166 --> 00:13:08,262 Look, it's just a course. It's just a book. 172 00:13:08,337 --> 00:13:10,362 No. There are people out there... 173 00:13:10,439 --> 00:13:13,135 people who came here to know something they didn't know. 174 00:13:13,209 --> 00:13:15,939 Who came here to be helped. 175 00:13:16,011 --> 00:13:17,945 So someone would help them... 176 00:13:18,013 --> 00:13:20,243 to do something, to know something. 177 00:13:20,316 --> 00:13:23,114 What do they say? To get on in the world. 178 00:13:23,185 --> 00:13:25,619 How can I do that if I fail? 179 00:13:25,688 --> 00:13:27,121 But I don't understand. 180 00:13:27,189 --> 00:13:29,623 I don't understand what anything means. 181 00:13:29,692 --> 00:13:31,421 And I walk around from morning till night... 182 00:13:31,494 --> 00:13:33,826 with this one thought in my head... I'm stupid. 183 00:13:33,896 --> 00:13:35,329 No one thinks you're stupid. 184 00:13:35,398 --> 00:13:38,629 - What am I, then? - I think you're angry. 185 00:13:40,703 --> 00:13:42,967 Many people are. 186 00:13:44,006 --> 00:13:46,099 I have an appointment I have to make... 187 00:13:46,175 --> 00:13:48,268 an appointment which is rather pressing. 188 00:13:48,344 --> 00:13:49,944 Though I sympathize with your concerns... 189 00:13:50,012 --> 00:13:51,946 and though I wish I had the time... 190 00:13:52,014 --> 00:13:53,948 this was not a previously scheduled meeting. 191 00:13:54,016 --> 00:13:55,677 You think I'm nothing. 192 00:13:55,751 --> 00:13:58,015 I have an appointment with a realtor and my wife. 193 00:13:58,087 --> 00:14:00,351 - You think I'm stupid. - No, I certainly do not. 194 00:14:00,423 --> 00:14:03,187 - You said it. You did. - When? No, I never did. 195 00:14:03,259 --> 00:14:05,693 Or never would say that to a student. 196 00:14:05,761 --> 00:14:08,594 You said, "What can that mean?" 197 00:14:08,664 --> 00:14:11,428 "What can that mean?" 198 00:14:11,500 --> 00:14:12,762 What did that mean to you? 199 00:14:12,835 --> 00:14:14,666 That I'm stupid and I'll never learn. 200 00:14:14,737 --> 00:14:16,534 That's what that meant, and you're right. 201 00:14:16,605 --> 00:14:18,539 But, then, what am I doing here? 202 00:14:18,607 --> 00:14:20,040 If you thought I... 203 00:14:20,109 --> 00:14:22,100 Nobody wants me, and nobody tells me anything. 204 00:14:22,178 --> 00:14:24,442 And I sit there in the corner in the back... 205 00:14:24,513 --> 00:14:26,504 and everybody's talking about this all the time... 206 00:14:26,582 --> 00:14:29,915 and concepts and precepts and... 207 00:14:29,985 --> 00:14:33,682 What in the world are you talking about? 208 00:14:33,756 --> 00:14:34,882 And I read your book... 209 00:14:34,957 --> 00:14:36,334 and they said, "Fine, go in that class"... 210 00:14:36,358 --> 00:14:39,054 because you talked about responsibility to the young. 211 00:14:39,128 --> 00:14:41,790 I don't know what it means, and I'm failing. 212 00:14:41,864 --> 00:14:43,627 - Maybe... - No, you're right. 213 00:14:43,699 --> 00:14:46,167 I failed. Flunk me out. It's garbage. 214 00:14:46,235 --> 00:14:47,361 Everything I do... 215 00:14:47,436 --> 00:14:49,267 "The ideas contained in this work... 216 00:14:49,338 --> 00:14:51,397 "express the author's feelings." 217 00:14:51,474 --> 00:14:53,203 That's right. 218 00:14:53,275 --> 00:14:56,335 I know I'm stupid. I know what I am. 219 00:14:56,412 --> 00:14:58,903 I know what I am, Professor. You don't have to tell me. 220 00:14:58,981 --> 00:15:00,608 It's pathetic, isn't it? 221 00:15:00,683 --> 00:15:03,880 Uh-huh. Sit down. 222 00:15:03,953 --> 00:15:05,386 Sit down, please? 223 00:15:05,454 --> 00:15:06,887 Please, sit down. 224 00:15:06,956 --> 00:15:09,891 - Why? - I want to talk to you. 225 00:15:09,959 --> 00:15:12,587 - Why? - Just sit down, please. 226 00:15:12,661 --> 00:15:14,094 Sit down! 227 00:15:14,163 --> 00:15:16,131 Will you, please? 228 00:15:20,536 --> 00:15:21,833 What? 229 00:15:21,904 --> 00:15:23,769 I know what you're talking about. 230 00:15:23,839 --> 00:15:24,965 No, you don't. 231 00:15:25,040 --> 00:15:27,008 - I think I do. - How can you? 232 00:15:27,076 --> 00:15:29,510 I'll tell you a story about myself. 233 00:15:29,578 --> 00:15:31,011 Do you mind? 234 00:15:31,080 --> 00:15:33,605 I was raised to think myself stupid. 235 00:15:33,682 --> 00:15:35,115 What do you mean? 236 00:15:35,184 --> 00:15:37,914 Just what I said. I was brought up... 237 00:15:37,987 --> 00:15:40,217 and my earliest and most persistent memories... 238 00:15:40,289 --> 00:15:42,519 are of being told that I was stupid. 239 00:15:42,591 --> 00:15:44,024 "You have such intelligence. 240 00:15:44,093 --> 00:15:46,527 "Why must you behave so stupidly?" 241 00:15:46,595 --> 00:15:48,529 Or "Can't you understand?" 242 00:15:48,597 --> 00:15:50,724 And I could not understand. 243 00:15:50,799 --> 00:15:51,959 What? 244 00:15:52,034 --> 00:15:54,366 The simplest problem was beyond me. 245 00:15:54,436 --> 00:15:55,596 It was a mystery. 246 00:15:55,671 --> 00:15:59,129 - What was a mystery? - How people learn. 247 00:15:59,208 --> 00:16:00,641 How I could learn. 248 00:16:00,709 --> 00:16:03,109 Which is what I've been speaking of in class. 249 00:16:03,178 --> 00:16:05,408 And, of course, you can't hear it, Carol. 250 00:16:05,481 --> 00:16:07,142 Of course you can't. 251 00:16:07,216 --> 00:16:10,151 If you are told... Listen to this... 252 00:16:10,219 --> 00:16:14,155 If the young child is told that he cannot understand... 253 00:16:14,223 --> 00:16:17,090 then he takes it as a description of himself. 254 00:16:17,159 --> 00:16:18,592 What am I? 255 00:16:18,661 --> 00:16:21,095 I am that which cannot understand. 256 00:16:21,163 --> 00:16:23,028 And I saw you back there... 257 00:16:23,098 --> 00:16:24,442 when we were speaking of the concept... 258 00:16:24,466 --> 00:16:26,798 I can't understand any of them. 259 00:16:26,869 --> 00:16:28,803 Then that's my fault. 260 00:16:28,871 --> 00:16:32,807 That is not your fault. And that is not verbiage. 261 00:16:32,875 --> 00:16:36,811 That is what I firmly hold to be the truth. 262 00:16:36,879 --> 00:16:38,574 And I'm sorry. 263 00:16:38,647 --> 00:16:42,743 And I owe you an apology. 264 00:16:42,818 --> 00:16:44,115 Why? 265 00:16:44,186 --> 00:16:48,247 I suppose I've had some things on my mind. 266 00:16:48,324 --> 00:16:49,518 We're buying a house... 267 00:16:49,592 --> 00:16:51,856 People said that you were stupid? 268 00:16:51,927 --> 00:16:53,258 Yes. 269 00:16:53,329 --> 00:16:54,853 Yes. 270 00:16:54,930 --> 00:16:56,625 When? 271 00:16:56,699 --> 00:16:59,031 I'll tell you when. Through my life. 272 00:16:59,101 --> 00:17:00,534 In my childhood. 273 00:17:00,603 --> 00:17:02,764 Perhaps they stopped, but I heard them continue. 274 00:17:02,838 --> 00:17:04,328 And what did they say? 275 00:17:04,406 --> 00:17:07,534 They said I was incompetent. You see? 276 00:17:07,610 --> 00:17:12,172 And when I am tested, the feelings of my youth... 277 00:17:12,247 --> 00:17:14,306 about the very subject of learning come up... 278 00:17:14,383 --> 00:17:19,218 and I feel unworthy and unprepared... 279 00:17:19,288 --> 00:17:22,917 - Yes. - And I feel that I must fail. 280 00:17:22,992 --> 00:17:24,983 But then you do fail. 281 00:17:25,060 --> 00:17:27,028 You have to, don't you? 282 00:17:29,164 --> 00:17:31,860 A pilot... flying a plane. 283 00:17:31,934 --> 00:17:33,401 The pilot is flying the plane. 284 00:17:33,469 --> 00:17:35,869 He thinks, "Oh, my God, my mind's been drifting. 285 00:17:35,938 --> 00:17:38,907 "Oh, my God, what kind of a cursed imbecile am I... 286 00:17:38,974 --> 00:17:42,137 "that I, with so precious a cargo of life in my charge... 287 00:17:42,211 --> 00:17:44,179 "would allow my attention to wander? 288 00:17:44,246 --> 00:17:45,804 "Why was I born? 289 00:17:45,881 --> 00:17:48,349 "How deluded are those who put their trust in me?" 290 00:17:48,417 --> 00:17:51,113 Et cetera and so on. And he crashes the plane. 291 00:17:51,186 --> 00:17:54,246 - He could just... - That's right. 292 00:17:54,323 --> 00:17:55,667 "My attention wandered for a moment." 293 00:17:55,691 --> 00:17:58,888 "I had a thought I did not like, but now..." 294 00:17:58,961 --> 00:18:00,155 That's what I'm telling you. 295 00:18:00,229 --> 00:18:02,459 "It's time to put my attention..." 296 00:18:02,531 --> 00:18:04,396 You see, it is not... 297 00:18:04,466 --> 00:18:06,457 It is not magic. 298 00:18:06,535 --> 00:18:09,436 I know in situations like these, you will think... 299 00:18:09,505 --> 00:18:11,439 "I must, but I can't." 300 00:18:11,507 --> 00:18:13,634 And you will think, "Why was I born... 301 00:18:13,709 --> 00:18:15,267 "to be the laughingstock of a world... 302 00:18:15,344 --> 00:18:17,073 "in which everyone is better than I... 303 00:18:17,146 --> 00:18:18,841 "where I am entitled to nothing... 304 00:18:18,914 --> 00:18:20,643 "where I cannot learn?" 305 00:18:20,716 --> 00:18:22,946 All right. 306 00:18:25,320 --> 00:18:27,618 I'm never going to get out of here today. 307 00:18:27,690 --> 00:18:30,625 Is that what I have? 308 00:18:30,693 --> 00:18:34,925 I don't know if I'd put it that way. 309 00:18:36,398 --> 00:18:37,990 Listen... 310 00:18:38,067 --> 00:18:40,763 I'm talking to you... 311 00:18:40,836 --> 00:18:43,737 as I would talk to my son... 312 00:18:43,839 --> 00:18:46,740 because that's what I'd like him to have that I never had. 313 00:18:46,809 --> 00:18:49,744 I'm talking to you the way I wish someone talked to me. 314 00:18:49,812 --> 00:18:51,746 I don't know how to do it... 315 00:18:51,814 --> 00:18:53,748 other than to be personal with you, but... 316 00:18:53,816 --> 00:18:55,511 Why would you want to be personal with me? 317 00:18:55,584 --> 00:18:56,983 You see, that's what I'm saying. 318 00:18:57,052 --> 00:18:59,247 We can only interpret the behavior of others... 319 00:18:59,321 --> 00:19:01,653 through the screen... 320 00:19:01,724 --> 00:19:03,248 Oh, Lord. 321 00:19:03,325 --> 00:19:05,293 ...the screen we create. 322 00:19:07,529 --> 00:19:08,689 Hello. 323 00:19:08,764 --> 00:19:11,028 Excuse me a moment. Hello. 324 00:19:11,100 --> 00:19:12,533 No, I'm coming down. 325 00:19:12,601 --> 00:19:15,536 I know I did. In a few... 326 00:19:15,604 --> 00:19:17,469 Is he coming to the... 327 00:19:17,539 --> 00:19:18,972 Yes, I talked to him. 328 00:19:19,041 --> 00:19:20,975 We'll meet you at the... 329 00:19:21,043 --> 00:19:23,477 No. I've been with a student. 330 00:19:23,545 --> 00:19:25,479 It's going to be... 331 00:19:25,547 --> 00:19:28,482 This is important, too. 332 00:19:28,550 --> 00:19:32,418 Jerry's going to... I've been with a student. 333 00:19:33,555 --> 00:19:35,989 How can you say that? 334 00:19:36,058 --> 00:19:38,856 I've... Look. 335 00:19:38,927 --> 00:19:40,792 The sooner I get off, the sooner I'll be down. 336 00:19:40,863 --> 00:19:44,492 Isn't that evident? I love you. 337 00:19:44,566 --> 00:19:48,002 Listen... Listen. I said I love you. 338 00:19:48,070 --> 00:19:50,561 It's going to work out with the house. 339 00:19:50,639 --> 00:19:53,073 Because I feel that it is. 340 00:19:53,142 --> 00:19:55,576 All right, I'll be right down. 341 00:19:55,644 --> 00:19:57,908 Yes, all right, I did. 342 00:19:57,980 --> 00:20:01,177 I'm saying it yet again. I'll be right... 343 00:20:01,250 --> 00:20:03,878 It's going to take as long as it takes! 344 00:20:12,761 --> 00:20:14,422 What was that? 345 00:20:15,764 --> 00:20:17,891 There are some problems, as there usually are... 346 00:20:17,966 --> 00:20:21,993 about the final agreements for the new house. 347 00:20:22,070 --> 00:20:25,005 You're buying a new house. 348 00:20:25,073 --> 00:20:26,734 That's right. 349 00:20:27,776 --> 00:20:29,676 Because of your promotion. 350 00:20:32,214 --> 00:20:34,444 I suppose that's right. 351 00:20:35,584 --> 00:20:38,280 Why did you stay here with me? 352 00:20:38,353 --> 00:20:41,789 - Stay here? - Yes. When you should have gone. 353 00:20:43,625 --> 00:20:45,559 Because I like you. 354 00:20:47,129 --> 00:20:49,563 - You like me? - Yes. 355 00:20:49,631 --> 00:20:51,064 Why? 356 00:20:51,133 --> 00:20:52,430 Why? 357 00:20:54,369 --> 00:20:56,963 Perhaps we're similar. 358 00:21:00,809 --> 00:21:04,245 You said everyone has problems. 359 00:21:04,313 --> 00:21:05,746 Everyone has problems. 360 00:21:05,814 --> 00:21:07,873 - Do they? - Certainly. 361 00:21:07,950 --> 00:21:10,578 - You do. - Yes. 362 00:21:10,652 --> 00:21:12,381 What are they? 363 00:21:16,158 --> 00:21:18,820 Well... 364 00:21:18,894 --> 00:21:22,489 you are absolutely right. 365 00:21:22,564 --> 00:21:25,499 I'm going to take off the artificial stricture... 366 00:21:25,567 --> 00:21:27,125 of teacher and student. 367 00:21:27,202 --> 00:21:30,694 Why should my problems be any more a mystery than your own? 368 00:21:33,609 --> 00:21:36,544 Of course I have problems, as you saw. 369 00:21:36,612 --> 00:21:39,547 - With what? - With my wife. With work. 370 00:21:39,615 --> 00:21:41,139 Tell me. 371 00:21:47,089 --> 00:21:49,614 Would you like a cup of tea? 372 00:22:25,394 --> 00:22:30,491 As I was saying, I came late to teaching. 373 00:22:30,565 --> 00:22:33,033 And I found it artificial... 374 00:22:33,101 --> 00:22:37,060 the notion of "I know, and you do not." 375 00:22:37,139 --> 00:22:39,699 I told you, I hated school. 376 00:22:39,775 --> 00:22:41,606 I hated teachers. 377 00:22:41,677 --> 00:22:44,009 I hated anyone who was in a position of a boss... 378 00:22:44,079 --> 00:22:47,515 because I knew... I didn't think, mind you... 379 00:22:47,582 --> 00:22:50,016 I knew I was going to fail. 380 00:22:50,085 --> 00:22:52,781 Late in life, when I got out from under... 381 00:22:52,854 --> 00:22:56,187 when I worked my way out of the need to fail... 382 00:22:56,258 --> 00:22:57,919 How do you do that? 383 00:22:57,993 --> 00:23:00,052 I'm going to tell you. 384 00:23:00,128 --> 00:23:01,857 You have to look at what you are... 385 00:23:01,930 --> 00:23:04,660 and what you feel and how you act. 386 00:23:04,733 --> 00:23:08,294 And finally, you have to look at how you act... 387 00:23:08,370 --> 00:23:10,167 and say, "If that's what I did... 388 00:23:10,238 --> 00:23:12,672 "that must be what I think of myself." 389 00:23:12,741 --> 00:23:14,106 I don't understand. 390 00:23:14,176 --> 00:23:16,440 If I fail all the time... 391 00:23:16,511 --> 00:23:19,241 it must be that I think of myself as a failure. 392 00:23:19,314 --> 00:23:22,340 If I don't want to think of myself as a failure... 393 00:23:22,417 --> 00:23:25,545 perhaps I should begin by succeeding now and again. 394 00:23:25,620 --> 00:23:29,181 Look. The tests, you see... 395 00:23:29,257 --> 00:23:32,522 which you encounter in school... 396 00:23:32,594 --> 00:23:34,687 in college, in life... 397 00:23:34,763 --> 00:23:38,529 were designed for idiots by idiots. 398 00:23:38,600 --> 00:23:40,431 There's no need to fail at them. 399 00:23:40,502 --> 00:23:42,026 They're not a test of your worth. 400 00:23:42,104 --> 00:23:43,765 They are a test of your ability... 401 00:23:43,839 --> 00:23:46,137 to retain and spout back misinformation. 402 00:23:46,208 --> 00:23:49,143 Of course you fail them. They're nonsense. 403 00:23:49,211 --> 00:23:51,577 No. No. 404 00:23:51,646 --> 00:23:54,479 Yes. They're garbage. 405 00:23:54,549 --> 00:23:55,675 They're a joke. 406 00:23:55,751 --> 00:23:57,651 How can you say that? 407 00:23:57,719 --> 00:24:00,654 Look at me. 408 00:24:00,722 --> 00:24:02,155 The tenure committee. 409 00:24:02,224 --> 00:24:05,159 The tenure committee come to judge me. 410 00:24:05,227 --> 00:24:07,195 The bad tenure committee. 411 00:24:07,262 --> 00:24:09,287 The test. You see? 412 00:24:09,364 --> 00:24:11,195 They put me to the test. 413 00:24:11,266 --> 00:24:12,466 They had people voting on me... 414 00:24:12,501 --> 00:24:14,526 I wouldn't employ to wax my car. 415 00:24:14,603 --> 00:24:17,663 And yet I go before the great tenure committee... 416 00:24:17,739 --> 00:24:20,731 I have an urge to vomit... 417 00:24:20,809 --> 00:24:25,007 to puke my badness on the table... to show them. 418 00:24:25,080 --> 00:24:28,208 I'm no good. Why would you pick me? 419 00:24:28,283 --> 00:24:29,910 They granted you tenure. 420 00:24:29,985 --> 00:24:32,419 Oh, no. They announced it. 421 00:24:32,487 --> 00:24:34,512 But they haven't signed. 422 00:24:34,589 --> 00:24:37,387 You see? At any moment. 423 00:24:38,427 --> 00:24:39,860 They might not sign. 424 00:24:39,928 --> 00:24:43,591 The house might not go through. 425 00:24:45,534 --> 00:24:48,298 They'll find out my dark secret. 426 00:24:48,370 --> 00:24:49,530 What is it? 427 00:24:51,606 --> 00:24:54,268 There isn't one. 428 00:24:54,342 --> 00:24:57,277 But they'll find an index of my badness. 429 00:24:57,345 --> 00:25:00,542 - Index? - A pointer. 430 00:25:00,615 --> 00:25:03,413 A pointer. You see? 431 00:25:03,485 --> 00:25:05,009 You see? 432 00:25:05,087 --> 00:25:08,955 I understand you. I know that feeling. 433 00:25:09,024 --> 00:25:11,959 Am I entitled to my job and my nice house... 434 00:25:12,027 --> 00:25:15,258 and my wife, my family? This is what I am saying. 435 00:25:15,330 --> 00:25:17,890 That theory of education which... 436 00:25:17,966 --> 00:25:20,662 - I... I... - What? 437 00:25:20,735 --> 00:25:22,862 I want to know about my grade. 438 00:25:28,977 --> 00:25:30,501 Of course you do. 439 00:25:30,579 --> 00:25:33,173 - Is that bad? - No. 440 00:25:33,248 --> 00:25:36,342 - Is it bad that I asked you? - No. 441 00:25:38,987 --> 00:25:41,217 And I apologize. 442 00:25:41,289 --> 00:25:44,452 Of course you want to know about your grade. 443 00:25:44,526 --> 00:25:46,551 Of course you can't concentrate on any... 444 00:25:50,098 --> 00:25:51,531 Wait a moment. 445 00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:54,125 - I should go. - I'll make you a deal. 446 00:25:54,202 --> 00:25:56,136 You have to take the call. 447 00:25:56,204 --> 00:25:57,637 Let it ring. I'll make you a deal. 448 00:25:57,706 --> 00:25:58,866 You stay here. 449 00:25:58,940 --> 00:26:00,635 I'm going to say... Stay here. 450 00:26:00,709 --> 00:26:03,644 I'm going to say it was not you... 451 00:26:03,712 --> 00:26:06,647 it was I who was not paying attention. 452 00:26:06,715 --> 00:26:09,183 We'll start the whole course over. 453 00:26:15,190 --> 00:26:17,317 Your grade is an "A." 454 00:26:17,392 --> 00:26:20,054 Your final grade is an "A." 455 00:26:20,128 --> 00:26:22,153 But the class is only half over. 456 00:26:22,230 --> 00:26:25,165 Your grade for the whole term is an "A"... 457 00:26:25,233 --> 00:26:27,133 if you will come back and meet with me... 458 00:26:27,202 --> 00:26:28,999 a few more times. 459 00:26:29,070 --> 00:26:31,334 Forget about the paper. You didn't like it. 460 00:26:31,406 --> 00:26:32,771 You didn't like writing it. 461 00:26:32,841 --> 00:26:34,069 It's not important. 462 00:26:34,142 --> 00:26:36,474 What's important is that I awake your interest... 463 00:26:36,545 --> 00:26:39,139 and that I answer your questions. 464 00:26:39,214 --> 00:26:41,512 - Let's start over. - With what? 465 00:26:41,583 --> 00:26:42,811 Say this is the beginning. 466 00:26:42,884 --> 00:26:45,512 - Of what? - The class. 467 00:26:45,587 --> 00:26:48,181 - But we can't start over. - I say we can. 468 00:26:48,256 --> 00:26:50,884 - I say we can. - But I don't believe it. 469 00:26:50,959 --> 00:26:52,824 I know, but it's true. 470 00:26:52,894 --> 00:26:55,192 What is the class, but you and me? 471 00:26:55,263 --> 00:26:56,855 There are rules. 472 00:26:56,932 --> 00:26:58,399 Well... 473 00:26:59,701 --> 00:27:01,931 - We'll break them. - How can we? 474 00:27:02,003 --> 00:27:03,334 We won't tell anybody. 475 00:27:03,405 --> 00:27:04,838 Is that all right? 476 00:27:04,906 --> 00:27:06,703 I say that it's fine. 477 00:27:06,775 --> 00:27:08,970 Why would you do this for me? 478 00:27:09,044 --> 00:27:10,705 I like you. 479 00:27:10,779 --> 00:27:13,839 Is that so difficult for you to... 480 00:27:13,915 --> 00:27:16,816 There's nobody here but you and me. 481 00:27:16,885 --> 00:27:18,352 All right! 482 00:27:21,056 --> 00:27:25,720 I did not understand when you referred... 483 00:27:25,827 --> 00:27:28,022 All right. Yes? 484 00:27:28,063 --> 00:27:31,555 When you referred to "hazing." 485 00:27:31,633 --> 00:27:33,863 You wrote in your book about the comparative... 486 00:27:33,935 --> 00:27:36,028 - Yes? Yes? - The comparative... 487 00:27:36,104 --> 00:27:37,348 - Are you checking your notes? - Yes. 488 00:27:37,372 --> 00:27:38,498 Tell me in your own words. 489 00:27:38,573 --> 00:27:39,973 I want to make sure I have it right. 490 00:27:40,041 --> 00:27:41,281 Of course. You want to be exact. 491 00:27:41,343 --> 00:27:43,504 I want to know everything that went on... 492 00:27:43,578 --> 00:27:44,977 That's very good. 493 00:27:45,046 --> 00:27:48,413 I was suggesting, many times that which we wish to retain... 494 00:27:48,483 --> 00:27:52,681 is retained oftentimes better with less expenditure of effort. 495 00:27:52,754 --> 00:27:54,984 Here it is. You wrote of "hazing." 496 00:27:55,056 --> 00:27:58,389 That's correct. Now, I said "hazing." 497 00:27:58,460 --> 00:28:01,190 It means ritualized annoyance. 498 00:28:01,263 --> 00:28:04,357 We shove this book at you. We say, read it. 499 00:28:04,432 --> 00:28:08,232 You say you've read it. I think you're lying. 500 00:28:08,303 --> 00:28:09,531 I'll grill you. 501 00:28:09,604 --> 00:28:11,333 And when I find out you've lied... 502 00:28:11,406 --> 00:28:14,807 you'll be disgraced, and your life will be ruined. 503 00:28:14,876 --> 00:28:17,470 It's a sick game. Why do we do it? 504 00:28:17,545 --> 00:28:20,571 Does it educate? In no sense. 505 00:28:20,649 --> 00:28:23,482 Well, then, tell me this... 506 00:28:23,551 --> 00:28:25,485 what is higher education? 507 00:28:25,553 --> 00:28:27,578 It is something other than useful. 508 00:28:27,656 --> 00:28:29,590 What is something other than useful? 509 00:28:29,658 --> 00:28:30,968 All right. That's a good question. 510 00:28:30,992 --> 00:28:33,517 It has become a ritual... 511 00:28:33,595 --> 00:28:35,324 it has become an article of faith... 512 00:28:35,397 --> 00:28:37,160 that all must be subjected to. 513 00:28:37,232 --> 00:28:38,859 Or to put it differently... 514 00:28:38,933 --> 00:28:41,401 that all are entitled to higher education. 515 00:28:41,469 --> 00:28:44,233 - And my point... - You disagree with that. 516 00:28:44,306 --> 00:28:48,003 Let's address that. What do you think? 517 00:28:48,076 --> 00:28:49,907 I don't know. 518 00:28:49,978 --> 00:28:52,310 What do you think, though? 519 00:28:54,582 --> 00:28:55,981 I don't know. 520 00:28:56,051 --> 00:28:59,509 I spoke of it in class. Do you remember my example? 521 00:28:59,587 --> 00:29:00,952 Justice. 522 00:29:01,022 --> 00:29:03,889 Can you repeat it to me without your notes? 523 00:29:03,958 --> 00:29:05,220 I ask you as a favor to me... 524 00:29:05,293 --> 00:29:08,558 so I can see if my idea was interesting. 525 00:29:08,630 --> 00:29:12,225 - You said justice. - Yes... 526 00:29:12,300 --> 00:29:15,736 That all are entitled to... 527 00:29:18,673 --> 00:29:21,608 Yes. To a speedy trial. 528 00:29:21,676 --> 00:29:22,973 To a fair trial. 529 00:29:23,044 --> 00:29:26,241 But they needn't be given a trial at all... 530 00:29:26,314 --> 00:29:27,975 unless they stand accused. 531 00:29:28,049 --> 00:29:30,040 Justice is their right. 532 00:29:30,118 --> 00:29:31,829 Should they choose to avail themselves of it... 533 00:29:31,853 --> 00:29:33,980 they should have a fair trial. 534 00:29:34,055 --> 00:29:36,489 It does not follow of necessity... 535 00:29:36,558 --> 00:29:38,287 that a person's life is incomplete... 536 00:29:38,360 --> 00:29:40,885 without a trial in it. You see? 537 00:29:40,962 --> 00:29:44,693 My point is, a confusion between... 538 00:29:44,766 --> 00:29:47,894 equity and utility arose. 539 00:29:47,969 --> 00:29:51,461 So that we confound the usefulness... 540 00:29:51,539 --> 00:29:55,134 of higher education with our granted right... 541 00:29:55,210 --> 00:29:56,507 to equal access to the same. 542 00:29:56,578 --> 00:29:59,513 We, in effect, create a prejudice toward it... 543 00:29:59,581 --> 00:30:01,014 completely independent of... 544 00:30:01,082 --> 00:30:03,846 That it is prejudice we should go to school? 545 00:30:03,918 --> 00:30:06,546 - Exactly. - How can you say that? 546 00:30:06,621 --> 00:30:08,316 Good. That's right. 547 00:30:08,390 --> 00:30:10,824 Speak up. What is a prejudice? 548 00:30:10,892 --> 00:30:13,861 An unreasoned belief. We all are subject to it. 549 00:30:13,928 --> 00:30:15,293 None of us is not. 550 00:30:15,363 --> 00:30:17,228 When it is threatened or opposed... 551 00:30:17,298 --> 00:30:18,890 we feel anger. 552 00:30:18,967 --> 00:30:22,130 And we feel, do we not, as you do now? 553 00:30:22,203 --> 00:30:24,967 - Do you not? Good. - But how can you... 554 00:30:25,039 --> 00:30:27,371 Yes. Let us examine. Good. 555 00:30:27,442 --> 00:30:30,411 I believe that I'm speaking! 556 00:30:52,634 --> 00:30:54,329 I... 557 00:30:58,640 --> 00:31:01,575 I'm sorry that I interrupted you. 558 00:31:01,643 --> 00:31:04,203 - That's all right. - You were saying? 559 00:31:04,279 --> 00:31:06,770 I was saying... 560 00:31:06,848 --> 00:31:08,281 I was saying... 561 00:31:08,349 --> 00:31:11,284 how can you say in a college class... 562 00:31:11,352 --> 00:31:13,377 that college education is prejudiced? 563 00:31:13,455 --> 00:31:15,389 I said that our predilection for it... 564 00:31:15,457 --> 00:31:18,358 - Predilection? - You know what that means? 565 00:31:18,426 --> 00:31:21,725 - Does it mean liking? - Yes. 566 00:31:21,796 --> 00:31:24,731 But how can you say that college is... 567 00:31:24,799 --> 00:31:26,733 That's my job, don't you know? 568 00:31:26,801 --> 00:31:29,031 - What is? - To provoke you. 569 00:31:29,103 --> 00:31:30,730 No. 570 00:31:30,805 --> 00:31:32,602 Oh, yes, though. 571 00:31:32,674 --> 00:31:35,108 - To provoke me? - That's right. 572 00:31:35,176 --> 00:31:37,167 - To make me mad? - That's right. 573 00:31:37,245 --> 00:31:40,681 - To force you... - To make me mad is your job? 574 00:31:40,748 --> 00:31:43,546 To force you to... 575 00:31:43,618 --> 00:31:45,552 Listen... 576 00:31:45,620 --> 00:31:47,110 Sit down. 577 00:31:49,123 --> 00:31:52,559 When I was young, somebody told me... 578 00:31:52,627 --> 00:31:54,060 Are you ready? 579 00:31:54,128 --> 00:31:57,063 The rich copulate less often than the poor. 580 00:31:57,131 --> 00:31:58,564 But when they do... 581 00:31:58,633 --> 00:32:01,500 they take more of their clothes off. 582 00:32:01,569 --> 00:32:03,594 Years! 583 00:32:03,671 --> 00:32:05,070 Years, mind you... 584 00:32:05,139 --> 00:32:08,040 I would compare experiences of my own to this dictum... 585 00:32:08,109 --> 00:32:10,543 saying, "Aha. This fits the norm." 586 00:32:10,612 --> 00:32:12,603 Or "This is a variation from it." 587 00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:16,241 What did it mean? Nothing. 588 00:32:16,317 --> 00:32:18,512 It was just some jerk thing some school kid told me... 589 00:32:18,586 --> 00:32:21,521 that took up room inside my head. 590 00:32:21,589 --> 00:32:23,454 Somebody told you... 591 00:32:23,525 --> 00:32:26,517 and you hold it as an article of faith... 592 00:32:26,594 --> 00:32:29,722 that higher education is an unassailable good. 593 00:32:29,797 --> 00:32:31,230 This notion is so dear to you... 594 00:32:31,299 --> 00:32:33,733 that when I question it, you become angry. 595 00:32:33,801 --> 00:32:35,792 Good, I say. 596 00:32:35,870 --> 00:32:39,670 Are not those the very things which we should question? 597 00:32:39,741 --> 00:32:44,508 I say college education since the war... 598 00:32:44,579 --> 00:32:47,275 has become so a matter of course... 599 00:32:47,348 --> 00:32:49,316 and such a fashionable necessity... 600 00:32:49,384 --> 00:32:50,510 for those either of... 601 00:32:50,585 --> 00:32:53,053 or aspiring to, the new vast middle class... 602 00:32:53,121 --> 00:32:55,919 that we espouse it as a matter of right... 603 00:32:55,990 --> 00:32:59,426 and have ceased to ask what is it good for? 604 00:32:59,494 --> 00:33:02,054 You see my point? 605 00:33:02,130 --> 00:33:07,067 What might be some reasons for the pursuit of higher education? 606 00:33:09,037 --> 00:33:11,562 One... a love of learning. 607 00:33:11,639 --> 00:33:15,905 Two... the wish for mastery of a skill. 608 00:33:15,977 --> 00:33:21,973 Three... for economic betterment. 609 00:33:39,801 --> 00:33:41,530 I'm keeping you. 610 00:33:41,603 --> 00:33:44,538 One moment. I have to make a note. 611 00:33:44,606 --> 00:33:46,039 It's something that I said. 612 00:33:46,107 --> 00:33:48,337 No. We're buying a house. 613 00:33:48,409 --> 00:33:50,536 You're buying a new house? 614 00:33:50,612 --> 00:33:53,672 To go with the tenure. That's right. 615 00:33:53,748 --> 00:33:58,048 Nice house. Close to the private school. 616 00:33:58,119 --> 00:34:00,553 We were speaking of economic betterment... 617 00:34:00,622 --> 00:34:03,386 and I was thinking of the school tax. 618 00:34:03,458 --> 00:34:04,652 School tax? 619 00:34:04,726 --> 00:34:06,557 Where is it written... 620 00:34:06,628 --> 00:34:12,863 that I have to send my child to public school? 621 00:34:12,934 --> 00:34:14,595 Is it a law... 622 00:34:14,669 --> 00:34:18,002 that I must improve the city's schools... 623 00:34:18,072 --> 00:34:22,873 at the expense of my own interest? 624 00:34:22,944 --> 00:34:26,004 And is this not simply... 625 00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:29,015 a case of... 626 00:34:29,083 --> 00:34:31,017 quote... 627 00:34:31,085 --> 00:34:35,078 the white man's burden? 628 00:34:35,156 --> 00:34:37,420 End quotation. 629 00:34:39,093 --> 00:34:40,253 Good. 630 00:34:46,601 --> 00:34:48,899 Does this interest you? 631 00:34:48,970 --> 00:34:51,302 No. I'm taking notes. 632 00:34:51,372 --> 00:34:55,001 You don't have to take notes. You can just listen. 633 00:34:55,076 --> 00:34:58,978 I want to make sure I remember it. 634 00:34:59,047 --> 00:35:00,275 I'm not lecturing you. 635 00:35:00,348 --> 00:35:03,010 I'm just telling you some things that I think. 636 00:35:03,084 --> 00:35:04,745 What do you think? 637 00:35:09,223 --> 00:35:12,215 Should all kids go to college? Why? 638 00:35:12,293 --> 00:35:14,022 - To learn. - But if he does not learn? 639 00:35:14,095 --> 00:35:17,496 - If the child does not learn? - Why is he in college? 640 00:35:17,598 --> 00:35:19,566 Because he was told it was his right? 641 00:35:19,634 --> 00:35:21,534 Some might find college instructive. 642 00:35:21,602 --> 00:35:22,864 I would hope so. 643 00:35:22,937 --> 00:35:26,134 How do they feel being told they're wasting their time? 644 00:35:26,207 --> 00:35:28,141 I don't think I'm telling them that. 645 00:35:28,209 --> 00:35:30,541 You said... 646 00:35:30,611 --> 00:35:35,913 "Education was prolonged and systematic hazing." 647 00:35:35,983 --> 00:35:37,678 Yes, it can be so. 648 00:35:37,752 --> 00:35:40,448 If education is so bad, why do you do it? 649 00:35:40,521 --> 00:35:43,649 I do it because I love it. 650 00:35:43,758 --> 00:35:45,953 Let's... 651 00:35:46,027 --> 00:35:48,188 I suggest... 652 00:35:48,262 --> 00:35:50,423 you look at the demographics. 653 00:35:50,498 --> 00:35:53,023 "Wage-earning capacity. 654 00:35:53,101 --> 00:35:59,563 "College and noncollege-educated men and women, 1855 to 1980." 655 00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:02,575 Let's see if we can wring some worth from these statistics... 656 00:36:02,643 --> 00:36:04,577 - No. - What? 657 00:36:04,645 --> 00:36:07,170 I can't understand them... the charts, the concepts. 658 00:36:07,248 --> 00:36:08,476 Charts are simply a tool... 659 00:36:08,549 --> 00:36:10,813 When I leave here... No, I can't. 660 00:36:10,885 --> 00:36:14,082 - You can, though. - No, I don't understand. 661 00:36:14,155 --> 00:36:15,918 - What? - Any of it. 662 00:36:15,990 --> 00:36:18,220 Any of it. I'm smiling in class. 663 00:36:18,292 --> 00:36:20,817 I'm smiling the whole time. What are you talking about? 664 00:36:20,895 --> 00:36:23,625 What is everyone talking about? I don't understand. 665 00:36:23,698 --> 00:36:26,030 I don't know what it means to be here. 666 00:36:26,100 --> 00:36:28,534 You tell me I'm intelligent... 667 00:36:28,603 --> 00:36:29,813 then you tell me I shouldn't be here. 668 00:36:29,837 --> 00:36:31,215 - It's all right. - I don't understand! 669 00:36:31,239 --> 00:36:32,934 What do you mean? Who should I listen to? 670 00:36:33,007 --> 00:36:34,497 Easy! 671 00:36:53,127 --> 00:36:55,960 I don't understand you. 672 00:36:57,131 --> 00:36:59,065 I know. It's all right. 673 00:36:59,133 --> 00:37:01,693 - I... - What? 674 00:37:01,769 --> 00:37:03,361 I... 675 00:37:03,437 --> 00:37:05,962 - What? Tell me. - I can't tell you. 676 00:37:06,040 --> 00:37:08,338 - No. You must. - I can't. 677 00:37:08,409 --> 00:37:09,899 No. Tell me. 678 00:37:11,779 --> 00:37:13,076 I'm bad! 679 00:37:20,087 --> 00:37:21,782 Oh, God. 680 00:37:23,090 --> 00:37:24,421 It's all right. 681 00:37:24,492 --> 00:37:25,720 I'm... 682 00:37:25,793 --> 00:37:27,351 It's all right. 683 00:37:27,428 --> 00:37:29,123 I can't talk about this. 684 00:37:29,197 --> 00:37:32,530 It's all right. Tell me. 685 00:37:32,600 --> 00:37:34,727 Why do you want to know this? 686 00:37:34,802 --> 00:37:36,736 I don't want to know. I want to know... 687 00:37:36,804 --> 00:37:38,897 - I always... - Good. 688 00:37:41,609 --> 00:37:43,372 I always... 689 00:37:45,112 --> 00:37:46,875 All of my life... 690 00:37:49,116 --> 00:37:53,075 I have never told anyone this. 691 00:37:53,154 --> 00:37:54,485 Go on. 692 00:37:55,623 --> 00:37:57,386 Go on. 693 00:37:59,627 --> 00:38:03,085 - All of my life... - Yes? 694 00:38:14,375 --> 00:38:16,070 I can't talk now. 695 00:38:16,143 --> 00:38:18,111 What? 696 00:38:18,179 --> 00:38:19,942 Wait a second. 697 00:38:20,014 --> 00:38:22,244 I don't get it. 698 00:38:22,316 --> 00:38:24,580 You talking about the realtor? 699 00:38:24,652 --> 00:38:26,244 She said what? 700 00:38:28,089 --> 00:38:29,556 Hold on. 701 00:38:36,597 --> 00:38:39,031 What? She what? 702 00:38:39,100 --> 00:38:42,092 She can't. 703 00:38:42,169 --> 00:38:44,034 She said the agreement is void. 704 00:38:44,105 --> 00:38:47,541 How? How is the agreement void? 705 00:38:47,608 --> 00:38:51,044 That's our house. I have the paper. 706 00:38:51,112 --> 00:38:53,842 When we come down next week with the payment and paper... 707 00:38:53,915 --> 00:38:57,544 that house is... Wait, wait, wait, wait. 708 00:38:57,618 --> 00:39:00,382 Did Jerry... Is Jerry there? 709 00:39:00,454 --> 00:39:04,049 Is she there? Does she have a lawyer? 710 00:39:04,125 --> 00:39:07,288 How the hell? 711 00:39:07,361 --> 00:39:10,558 It's a question, you said, of the easement. 712 00:39:10,631 --> 00:39:13,191 I don't understand. It's not the whole agreement. 713 00:39:13,267 --> 00:39:16,498 It's just the easement. Why would she... 714 00:39:16,570 --> 00:39:19,733 Put Jerry on. 715 00:39:23,611 --> 00:39:25,511 Jerry, what the hell? 716 00:39:25,579 --> 00:39:29,015 That's my house. I'm not coming down. 717 00:39:29,083 --> 00:39:32,644 Listen, screw her! 718 00:39:32,720 --> 00:39:34,210 I want you to take Grace... 719 00:39:34,288 --> 00:39:35,516 you get out of that house. 720 00:39:35,589 --> 00:39:38,023 You leave her there, her and her lawyer. 721 00:39:38,092 --> 00:39:40,822 And you tell her we'll see them in court next... 722 00:39:40,895 --> 00:39:43,830 No, leave her there! Leave her to stew in it. 723 00:39:43,898 --> 00:39:45,798 You tell her we're getting that house... 724 00:39:45,866 --> 00:39:47,299 and we are going to... 725 00:39:47,368 --> 00:39:49,563 No, I am not coming down. 726 00:39:49,637 --> 00:39:52,128 I'll be damned if I'll sit in the same... 727 00:39:52,206 --> 00:39:55,539 You tell her next time we see her is in court. 728 00:39:55,609 --> 00:39:58,874 I... What? 729 00:39:58,946 --> 00:40:00,413 What? 730 00:40:02,116 --> 00:40:04,880 I don't understand. 731 00:40:04,952 --> 00:40:07,284 What about the house? 732 00:40:08,622 --> 00:40:11,455 There isn't any problem with the hou... 733 00:40:14,628 --> 00:40:17,062 No, that's all right. 734 00:40:17,131 --> 00:40:20,066 I'll... All right. 735 00:40:20,134 --> 00:40:22,967 Of course. 736 00:40:23,037 --> 00:40:26,370 No. I will. Right away. 737 00:40:39,620 --> 00:40:41,679 What is it? 738 00:40:45,159 --> 00:40:47,957 It's a surprise party. 739 00:40:48,029 --> 00:40:50,589 - It is? - Yes. 740 00:40:50,664 --> 00:40:52,325 A party for you? 741 00:40:52,400 --> 00:40:54,095 Yes. 742 00:40:54,168 --> 00:40:56,602 Is it your birthday? 743 00:40:56,670 --> 00:41:00,106 - No. - What is it? 744 00:41:00,174 --> 00:41:02,734 The tenure announcement. 745 00:41:02,810 --> 00:41:05,506 The tenure announcement? 746 00:41:05,579 --> 00:41:07,945 They're throwing a party for us in our new house. 747 00:41:08,015 --> 00:41:10,813 - Your new house? - The house that we're buying. 748 00:41:10,885 --> 00:41:13,410 You have to go. 749 00:41:13,487 --> 00:41:16,422 It seems that I do. 750 00:41:16,490 --> 00:41:19,323 They're proud of you. 751 00:41:20,661 --> 00:41:24,358 There are those who would say it's a form of aggression. 752 00:41:24,432 --> 00:41:27,196 What is? 753 00:41:27,268 --> 00:41:29,327 A surprise. 754 00:43:31,692 --> 00:43:34,092 You see, I love to teach. 755 00:43:34,161 --> 00:43:37,187 And I flatter myself I'm skilled at it. 756 00:43:37,264 --> 00:43:39,562 And I love the aspect of performance. 757 00:43:39,633 --> 00:43:42,033 I think I must confess that. 758 00:43:42,102 --> 00:43:45,196 When I found I love to teach... 759 00:43:45,272 --> 00:43:47,263 I swore that I would not become... 760 00:43:47,341 --> 00:43:49,605 that cold, rigid automaton of an instructor... 761 00:43:49,677 --> 00:43:52,544 which I had encountered as a child. 762 00:43:52,613 --> 00:43:55,013 Now, I was not unconscious... 763 00:43:55,082 --> 00:43:57,050 that it was given me to err upon the other side. 764 00:43:57,117 --> 00:44:00,018 And so I asked and asked myself... 765 00:44:00,087 --> 00:44:02,555 if I had engaged in heterodoxy... 766 00:44:02,623 --> 00:44:04,557 I will not say gratuitously... 767 00:44:04,625 --> 00:44:06,718 for I do not care to posit orthodoxy... 768 00:44:06,794 --> 00:44:08,728 as a given good... 769 00:44:10,130 --> 00:44:14,362 But to the detriment of my students. 770 00:44:17,071 --> 00:44:18,231 Yes. 771 00:44:20,074 --> 00:44:21,632 As I said... 772 00:44:21,709 --> 00:44:25,008 when the possibility of tenure opened... 773 00:44:25,079 --> 00:44:28,742 and, of course, I had long pursued it... 774 00:44:28,816 --> 00:44:33,150 I was, of course, happy and covetous of it. 775 00:44:36,090 --> 00:44:39,184 I asked myself if I was wrong to covet it... 776 00:44:39,260 --> 00:44:43,526 and thought about it long and, I hope, truthfully... 777 00:44:43,597 --> 00:44:47,533 and saw in myself several things... 778 00:44:47,601 --> 00:44:50,161 in, I think, no particular order... 779 00:44:50,237 --> 00:44:54,037 and I would like to share them with you. 780 00:44:54,108 --> 00:44:57,942 That I would pursue it... 781 00:44:58,012 --> 00:45:00,037 that I desired it... 782 00:45:00,114 --> 00:45:03,049 that I was not pure of longing for security... 783 00:45:03,117 --> 00:45:06,484 and that perhaps was not reprehensible in me. 784 00:45:06,553 --> 00:45:08,851 That I had duties beyond the school... 785 00:45:08,922 --> 00:45:11,322 and that my duty to my home, for instance... 786 00:45:11,392 --> 00:45:13,189 was, or should be if it were not... 787 00:45:13,260 --> 00:45:14,887 of an equal weight. 788 00:45:14,962 --> 00:45:19,626 That tenure and security and, yes, and comfort... 789 00:45:19,700 --> 00:45:21,964 were not of themselves to be scorned... 790 00:45:22,036 --> 00:45:25,494 and were even worthy of honorable pursuit. 791 00:45:25,572 --> 00:45:27,665 And that it was given me... 792 00:45:27,741 --> 00:45:30,266 here in this place which I enjoy... 793 00:45:30,344 --> 00:45:33,245 and in which I find comfort to assure myself... 794 00:45:33,314 --> 00:45:36,511 of, as far as it rests in the material... 795 00:45:36,583 --> 00:45:40,019 a continuation of that comfort and joy. 796 00:45:40,087 --> 00:45:42,021 In exchange for what? 797 00:45:42,089 --> 00:45:45,581 Teaching... which I love. 798 00:45:49,596 --> 00:45:52,531 What was the price of this security? 799 00:45:52,599 --> 00:45:55,534 To obtain tenure, which tenure... 800 00:45:55,602 --> 00:45:57,661 the committee is in the process of granting me... 801 00:45:57,738 --> 00:45:59,137 and on the basis of which... 802 00:45:59,206 --> 00:46:02,835 I contracted to purchase a house. 803 00:46:05,612 --> 00:46:07,546 Now. 804 00:46:07,614 --> 00:46:10,583 As you don't have your own family at this point... 805 00:46:10,651 --> 00:46:12,551 you may not know what that means... 806 00:46:12,619 --> 00:46:15,053 but to me, it is very important... 807 00:46:15,122 --> 00:46:18,990 a home, a good home, to raise my family. 808 00:46:19,059 --> 00:46:20,993 Now, the tenure committee will meet. 809 00:46:21,061 --> 00:46:23,120 This is the process... 810 00:46:23,197 --> 00:46:25,495 and a good process, under which... 811 00:46:25,566 --> 00:46:28,501 the school has functioned for quite a long time. 812 00:46:28,569 --> 00:46:31,504 They will meet and hear your complaint... 813 00:46:31,572 --> 00:46:33,506 which you have the right to make... 814 00:46:33,574 --> 00:46:35,474 and they will dismiss it. 815 00:46:35,542 --> 00:46:37,976 They will dismiss your complaint... 816 00:46:38,045 --> 00:46:39,979 and in the intervening period... 817 00:46:40,047 --> 00:46:42,845 I will lose my house. 818 00:46:42,916 --> 00:46:45,009 I will not be able to close on my house. 819 00:46:45,085 --> 00:46:47,019 I will lose my deposit. 820 00:46:47,087 --> 00:46:51,023 And the home I picked out for my wife and son... 821 00:46:51,091 --> 00:46:53,559 will go by the boards. 822 00:46:53,627 --> 00:46:56,562 I see that I have angered you. 823 00:46:56,630 --> 00:46:58,530 I understand your anger with teachers. 824 00:46:58,599 --> 00:47:00,533 I was angry with mine. 825 00:47:00,601 --> 00:47:03,161 I felt hurt and humiliated by them... 826 00:47:03,237 --> 00:47:05,637 which is one of the reasons I went into education. 827 00:47:05,706 --> 00:47:08,072 What do you want of me? 828 00:47:09,610 --> 00:47:11,942 I was hurt when I received the report... 829 00:47:12,012 --> 00:47:13,411 of the tenure committee. 830 00:47:13,480 --> 00:47:16,540 I was shocked and I was hurt. 831 00:47:16,617 --> 00:47:18,983 Now... 832 00:47:19,052 --> 00:47:22,681 I don't mean to subject you to my weak sensibilities. 833 00:47:22,756 --> 00:47:25,987 All right. Finally, I did not understand. 834 00:47:26,059 --> 00:47:27,492 And then I thought... 835 00:47:27,561 --> 00:47:29,620 is it not always at those points... 836 00:47:29,696 --> 00:47:31,425 at which we reckon ourselves unassailable... 837 00:47:31,498 --> 00:47:33,898 that we are most vulnerable? 838 00:47:41,575 --> 00:47:43,702 Yes. All right. 839 00:47:47,581 --> 00:47:51,017 You find me pedantic. Yes, I am. 840 00:47:51,084 --> 00:47:54,576 By nature, by birth, by profession. 841 00:47:54,655 --> 00:47:57,283 I don't know. I'm always looking for a paradigm. 842 00:47:57,357 --> 00:47:59,621 I don't know what a paradigm is. 843 00:47:59,693 --> 00:48:00,853 It's a model. 844 00:48:00,928 --> 00:48:03,328 Then why can't you use that word? 845 00:48:05,098 --> 00:48:08,033 If it is important to you, yes. 846 00:48:08,101 --> 00:48:10,035 I was looking for a model. 847 00:48:10,103 --> 00:48:13,561 To continue, I feel that one point... 848 00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:15,574 One second! 849 00:48:15,642 --> 00:48:17,473 Upon which I am unassailable... 850 00:48:17,544 --> 00:48:21,241 is my unflinching concern for my students' dignity. 851 00:48:21,315 --> 00:48:24,512 I have asked you here in a spirit of investigation... 852 00:48:24,585 --> 00:48:27,486 to ask you... to ask... 853 00:48:27,554 --> 00:48:30,421 what have I done to you? 854 00:48:30,491 --> 00:48:34,222 And, I suppose, how can I make amends? 855 00:48:34,294 --> 00:48:36,455 Can we not settle this now? 856 00:48:36,530 --> 00:48:38,828 It's pointless, really. And I want to know... 857 00:48:38,899 --> 00:48:40,992 What you can do to force me to retract. 858 00:48:41,068 --> 00:48:42,399 That is not what I meant at all. 859 00:48:42,469 --> 00:48:45,336 To bribe me, to convince me to retract. 860 00:48:45,405 --> 00:48:46,702 That is not what I meant at all. 861 00:48:46,773 --> 00:48:48,297 I think you know that it is not. 862 00:48:48,375 --> 00:48:50,138 That is not what I know. I wish I... 863 00:48:50,210 --> 00:48:51,404 You wish what? 864 00:48:51,478 --> 00:48:53,503 No. You said what amends you can make... 865 00:48:53,580 --> 00:48:55,241 to force me to retract. 866 00:48:55,315 --> 00:48:56,509 That is not what I said. 867 00:48:56,583 --> 00:48:58,175 I have my notes. 868 00:48:58,252 --> 00:49:01,278 Look. Look... 869 00:49:01,355 --> 00:49:03,016 The stoics say... 870 00:49:03,090 --> 00:49:04,614 The stoics? 871 00:49:04,691 --> 00:49:06,283 The stoical philosophers say... 872 00:49:06,360 --> 00:49:09,022 if you remove the phrase, "I have been injured"... 873 00:49:09,096 --> 00:49:11,064 you have removed the injury. 874 00:49:11,131 --> 00:49:14,066 Now, think. I know you're upset. 875 00:49:14,134 --> 00:49:16,967 Just tell me, literally... 876 00:49:17,037 --> 00:49:19,096 what wrong have I done you? 877 00:49:19,172 --> 00:49:21,470 Whatever you have done to me... 878 00:49:21,542 --> 00:49:24,204 to the extent that you've done it to me... 879 00:49:24,278 --> 00:49:25,768 rather than to me as a student... 880 00:49:25,846 --> 00:49:27,711 and so to the student body... 881 00:49:27,781 --> 00:49:30,409 is contained in my report to the tenure committee. 882 00:49:30,484 --> 00:49:31,883 Well, all right. 883 00:49:33,754 --> 00:49:36,086 Let's see. 884 00:49:37,391 --> 00:49:40,519 Let's investigate this. 885 00:49:44,064 --> 00:49:45,725 I find that I am sexist... 886 00:49:45,799 --> 00:49:47,630 that I am elitist. 887 00:49:47,701 --> 00:49:49,181 I'm not sure I know what that means... 888 00:49:49,236 --> 00:49:52,899 other than it's a derogatory word meaning bad. 889 00:49:52,973 --> 00:49:55,908 That I insist on wasting time... 890 00:49:55,976 --> 00:49:59,002 in nonprescribed and self-aggrandizing... 891 00:49:59,079 --> 00:50:03,072 and theatrical diversions from the prescribed text. 892 00:50:03,150 --> 00:50:07,519 That these have taken both sexist and pornographic forms. 893 00:50:07,588 --> 00:50:12,525 Here we find listed instances. 894 00:50:12,593 --> 00:50:15,221 Closeted with a student... 895 00:50:15,295 --> 00:50:18,287 told a rambling, sexually-explicit story... 896 00:50:18,365 --> 00:50:20,526 in which the frequency and attitudes of fornication... 897 00:50:20,601 --> 00:50:25,629 of the poor and rich are the central point. 898 00:50:25,706 --> 00:50:29,039 "Moved to embrace said student." 899 00:50:29,109 --> 00:50:33,068 That I used the phrase "the white man's burden." 900 00:50:35,949 --> 00:50:38,247 That I told you how I'd asked you to my room... 901 00:50:38,318 --> 00:50:40,377 because I "like you." 902 00:50:40,454 --> 00:50:43,582 "He said he liked me, that he liked being with me. 903 00:50:43,657 --> 00:50:46,353 "He'd let me write my examination paper over... 904 00:50:46,426 --> 00:50:50,021 "if I could come back oftener to see him in his office." 905 00:50:50,097 --> 00:50:52,065 It's ludicrous. Don't you know that? 906 00:50:52,132 --> 00:50:53,565 It's not necessary. 907 00:50:53,634 --> 00:50:56,467 It's going to humiliate you and to cost me my house. 908 00:50:56,536 --> 00:50:59,562 It's ludicrous? 909 00:50:59,640 --> 00:51:02,200 "He told me he had problems with his wife... 910 00:51:02,275 --> 00:51:03,519 "and that he wanted to take off... 911 00:51:03,543 --> 00:51:05,875 "the artificial stricture of teacher and student. 912 00:51:05,946 --> 00:51:07,743 "He put his arms around..." 913 00:51:07,814 --> 00:51:09,247 Do you deny it? 914 00:51:09,316 --> 00:51:12,410 Can you deny it? Don't you see? 915 00:51:12,486 --> 00:51:13,612 You don't see, do you? 916 00:51:13,687 --> 00:51:14,984 I don't see. 917 00:51:15,055 --> 00:51:17,819 You think that you can deny that these things happened... 918 00:51:17,891 --> 00:51:19,882 or if they did... 919 00:51:19,960 --> 00:51:22,053 that they meant what you said they meant. 920 00:51:22,129 --> 00:51:24,188 Don't you see? You dragged me in here... 921 00:51:24,264 --> 00:51:28,132 You drag us to listen to you go on about this or that... 922 00:51:28,201 --> 00:51:30,362 or we don't express ourselves very well. 923 00:51:30,437 --> 00:51:33,201 We don't say what we mean, don't we? 924 00:51:33,273 --> 00:51:34,570 We do say what we mean... 925 00:51:34,641 --> 00:51:36,506 and you say "I don't understand you" and... 926 00:51:36,576 --> 00:51:38,441 Consult the report? You see? 927 00:51:38,512 --> 00:51:39,911 Do you see what I'm saying? 928 00:51:39,980 --> 00:51:41,971 Can't you tell me in your own words? 929 00:51:42,049 --> 00:51:44,279 Those are my own words. 930 00:51:46,620 --> 00:51:48,884 "He told me that if I would stay alone with him... 931 00:51:48,955 --> 00:51:51,719 "in his office, he would change my grade to an "A." 932 00:51:51,792 --> 00:51:54,056 What have I done to you? 933 00:51:54,127 --> 00:51:56,493 Oh, my God! Are you so hurt? 934 00:51:56,563 --> 00:51:58,394 What I feel is irrelevant. 935 00:51:58,465 --> 00:51:59,709 Do you know I tried to help you? 936 00:51:59,733 --> 00:52:01,496 What I know I have reported. 937 00:52:01,568 --> 00:52:04,059 I would like to help you now, before this escalates. 938 00:52:04,137 --> 00:52:05,434 I don't need your help. 939 00:52:05,505 --> 00:52:06,849 I don't need anything that you have. 940 00:52:06,873 --> 00:52:10,070 - I feel... - I don't care what you feel. 941 00:52:10,143 --> 00:52:12,941 You can't do that anymore. You do not have the power. 942 00:52:13,013 --> 00:52:15,174 Did you misuse it? Someone did. 943 00:52:15,248 --> 00:52:16,442 Are you part of that group? 944 00:52:16,516 --> 00:52:18,074 Yes, you are. You've done these things. 945 00:52:18,151 --> 00:52:20,119 And to say, "Excuse me." 946 00:52:20,187 --> 00:52:23,247 And to say, "Let me help you with your problem..." 947 00:52:23,323 --> 00:52:25,518 Yes, I understand. 948 00:52:25,592 --> 00:52:27,423 You're hurt. You're angry. 949 00:52:27,494 --> 00:52:29,519 I think your anger is betraying you... 950 00:52:29,596 --> 00:52:32,030 down a path which helps no one. 951 00:52:32,099 --> 00:52:34,033 I don't care what you think. 952 00:52:34,101 --> 00:52:37,127 You don't? But you talk of rights. 953 00:52:37,204 --> 00:52:39,536 Don't you see? I have rights, too. 954 00:52:39,606 --> 00:52:42,040 I have a house, part of the real world... 955 00:52:42,109 --> 00:52:45,374 and the tenure committee. Good men and true. 956 00:52:45,445 --> 00:52:47,174 - Professor... - Please. 957 00:52:47,247 --> 00:52:50,182 Also part of that world. You understand? 958 00:52:50,250 --> 00:52:52,741 This is my life. I'm not a boogie man. 959 00:52:52,819 --> 00:52:54,116 I don't stand for something... 960 00:52:54,187 --> 00:52:57,054 Professor, I came here as a favor... 961 00:52:57,124 --> 00:52:58,557 at your personal request. 962 00:52:58,625 --> 00:53:00,058 Perhaps I should not have done so... 963 00:53:00,127 --> 00:53:03,563 but I did on my behalf and on behalf of my group. 964 00:53:03,630 --> 00:53:05,190 And you speak of the tenure committee... 965 00:53:05,265 --> 00:53:07,358 one of whose members is a woman... 966 00:53:07,434 --> 00:53:09,231 and though you might call it good fun... 967 00:53:09,302 --> 00:53:12,032 or an historical phrase or an oversight... 968 00:53:12,105 --> 00:53:15,472 to refer to the committee as good men and true... 969 00:53:15,542 --> 00:53:17,510 it is a demeaning remark. 970 00:53:17,577 --> 00:53:19,010 It is a sexist remark... 971 00:53:19,079 --> 00:53:22,014 and to overlook it is to countenance continuation... 972 00:53:22,082 --> 00:53:23,310 of that method of thought. 973 00:53:23,383 --> 00:53:26,409 - It's a remark... - Oh, come on! 974 00:53:26,486 --> 00:53:29,887 Come on! Sufficient to deprive a family... 975 00:53:29,956 --> 00:53:31,116 Sufficient? 976 00:53:31,191 --> 00:53:33,523 Sufficient, yes. It is a fact. 977 00:53:33,593 --> 00:53:35,527 And that story which I quote... 978 00:53:35,595 --> 00:53:37,529 is vile and classist and manipulative... 979 00:53:37,597 --> 00:53:39,224 and pornographic... 980 00:53:39,299 --> 00:53:40,664 It's pornographic? 981 00:53:40,734 --> 00:53:43,396 What gives you the right to speak to a woman... 982 00:53:46,640 --> 00:53:48,505 Yes, I'm sorry. 983 00:53:48,575 --> 00:53:51,043 I'm sorry you feel yourself empowered. 984 00:53:51,111 --> 00:53:52,578 You say so yourself... 985 00:53:52,646 --> 00:53:55,774 to strut, to posture, to perform. 986 00:53:55,849 --> 00:53:58,784 You say that higher education is a joke... 987 00:53:58,852 --> 00:54:00,547 and treat it as such. 988 00:54:00,620 --> 00:54:03,248 You treat it as such and confess to a taste... 989 00:54:03,323 --> 00:54:06,224 to play the patriarch in your class... 990 00:54:06,293 --> 00:54:08,557 to grant this, to deny that... 991 00:54:08,628 --> 00:54:10,095 to embrace your students. 992 00:54:10,163 --> 00:54:13,064 How can you assert? How can you stand there? 993 00:54:13,133 --> 00:54:17,365 How can you deny it? You did it to me here. 994 00:54:17,437 --> 00:54:18,870 You did. You confess. 995 00:54:18,939 --> 00:54:20,372 You love the power... 996 00:54:20,440 --> 00:54:23,000 to deviate, to invent, to transgress... 997 00:54:23,076 --> 00:54:26,568 to transgress whatever norms have been established for us. 998 00:54:26,646 --> 00:54:29,615 And you think it's charming to question in yourself... 999 00:54:29,683 --> 00:54:31,981 this taste to mock and destroy. 1000 00:54:32,052 --> 00:54:35,681 But to the aspirations of your students... 1001 00:54:35,755 --> 00:54:38,588 of hard-working students who come here... 1002 00:54:38,658 --> 00:54:40,489 who slave to come here... 1003 00:54:40,560 --> 00:54:46,021 You have no idea what it cost me to come to this school. 1004 00:54:46,099 --> 00:54:48,533 You mock us. 1005 00:54:48,602 --> 00:54:51,070 You call education hazing... 1006 00:54:51,137 --> 00:54:54,072 and from your so-protected, so-elitist seat... 1007 00:54:54,140 --> 00:54:56,802 you hold our confusion as a joke... 1008 00:54:56,877 --> 00:54:58,902 and our hopes and efforts with it. 1009 00:54:58,979 --> 00:55:01,106 Then you sit there and say, "What have I done?" 1010 00:55:01,181 --> 00:55:05,550 And ask me to understand that you have aspirations, too. 1011 00:55:05,619 --> 00:55:08,110 But I tell you... 1012 00:55:08,188 --> 00:55:10,520 I tell you that you are vile... 1013 00:55:10,590 --> 00:55:13,286 and that you are exploitative... 1014 00:55:13,360 --> 00:55:17,126 and if you possess one ounce of that inner honesty... 1015 00:55:17,197 --> 00:55:18,687 you describe in your book... 1016 00:55:18,765 --> 00:55:23,202 you can look in yourself and see those things that I see... 1017 00:55:23,270 --> 00:55:26,762 and you can find revulsion equal to my own. Good day. 1018 00:55:26,840 --> 00:55:28,467 Wait a second, will you? Just one moment. 1019 00:55:28,541 --> 00:55:29,838 Nice day today. 1020 00:55:33,647 --> 00:55:35,444 What? 1021 00:55:35,515 --> 00:55:37,073 You said good day. 1022 00:55:37,150 --> 00:55:38,617 I think that it is a nice day today. 1023 00:55:38,685 --> 00:55:40,710 - Is it? - Yes, I think it is. 1024 00:55:40,787 --> 00:55:42,152 Why is that important? 1025 00:55:42,222 --> 00:55:44,087 Because... 1026 00:55:44,157 --> 00:55:47,593 it's the essence of all human communication. 1027 00:55:47,661 --> 00:55:50,152 I say something conventional, you respond... 1028 00:55:50,230 --> 00:55:52,550 and the information we exchange is not about the weather... 1029 00:55:52,599 --> 00:55:54,533 but that we agree to converse. 1030 00:55:54,601 --> 00:55:57,570 In effect, we agree that we are both human. 1031 00:55:57,637 --> 00:55:59,434 I am not an exploiter... 1032 00:55:59,506 --> 00:56:03,533 and you are not a deranged, what, revolutionary? 1033 00:56:03,610 --> 00:56:06,044 That we may have positions... 1034 00:56:06,112 --> 00:56:08,546 and that we may have desires which are in conflict... 1035 00:56:08,615 --> 00:56:10,549 but that we're just human... 1036 00:56:10,617 --> 00:56:13,051 that means sometimes we're imperfect. 1037 00:56:13,119 --> 00:56:15,417 Often, we're in conflict. 1038 00:56:15,488 --> 00:56:17,046 Much of what we do... you're right... 1039 00:56:17,123 --> 00:56:20,058 in the name of principles is self-serving. 1040 00:56:20,126 --> 00:56:22,094 Much of what we do is conventional. 1041 00:56:22,162 --> 00:56:23,652 You're right. 1042 00:56:23,730 --> 00:56:28,167 You said you came into the class to learn about education. 1043 00:56:28,234 --> 00:56:30,225 I don't know that I can teach you about education. 1044 00:56:30,303 --> 00:56:33,568 But I know I can tell you what I think about education... 1045 00:56:33,640 --> 00:56:35,904 and then you decide. 1046 00:56:35,976 --> 00:56:37,603 And you don't have to fight with me. 1047 00:56:37,677 --> 00:56:39,668 I'm not the subject. 1048 00:56:39,746 --> 00:56:43,147 And where I am wrong... 1049 00:56:44,851 --> 00:56:47,251 perhaps it's not your job to fix me. 1050 00:56:47,320 --> 00:56:48,981 I know I don't want to fix you. 1051 00:56:49,055 --> 00:56:50,784 I would like to tell you what I think... 1052 00:56:50,857 --> 00:56:53,018 because that is my job... 1053 00:56:53,093 --> 00:56:56,995 conventional though it is, and flawed as I may be. 1054 00:57:03,603 --> 00:57:05,161 And then... 1055 00:57:05,238 --> 00:57:07,536 if you can show me some better form... 1056 00:57:07,607 --> 00:57:10,041 then we can proceed from there. 1057 00:57:10,110 --> 00:57:13,273 But just like, "Nice day, isn't it?"... 1058 00:57:13,346 --> 00:57:15,541 I don't think we can proceed... 1059 00:57:15,615 --> 00:57:19,312 until we accept that each of us is human... 1060 00:57:19,386 --> 00:57:21,251 and we can still have difficulties. 1061 00:57:21,321 --> 00:57:24,051 We will have them. That's all right, too. 1062 00:57:24,124 --> 00:57:25,591 - Now... - Wait. 1063 00:57:29,629 --> 00:57:31,494 Yes, I want to hear it. 1064 00:57:31,564 --> 00:57:32,826 The... 1065 00:57:32,899 --> 00:57:34,764 Yes, tell me frankly. 1066 00:57:34,834 --> 00:57:35,994 My position... 1067 00:57:36,069 --> 00:57:38,560 I want to hear it in your own words... 1068 00:57:38,638 --> 00:57:40,003 what you want, what you feel... 1069 00:57:40,073 --> 00:57:42,564 My group. 1070 00:57:42,642 --> 00:57:44,303 Your group? 1071 00:57:50,583 --> 00:57:55,213 The people I've been talking to, they... 1072 00:57:55,288 --> 00:57:57,222 There's no shame in that. 1073 00:57:57,290 --> 00:57:59,224 Everybody needs advisors. 1074 00:57:59,292 --> 00:58:01,817 Everybody needs to expose themselves... 1075 00:58:01,895 --> 00:58:03,021 to various points of view. 1076 00:58:03,096 --> 00:58:06,532 It's not wrong. It's essential. 1077 00:58:06,599 --> 00:58:08,066 Good. 1078 00:58:09,602 --> 00:58:12,002 Good. Now. 1079 00:58:12,072 --> 00:58:13,539 You and I... 1080 00:58:20,080 --> 00:58:21,570 You and I. 1081 00:58:41,134 --> 00:58:43,364 Hello? 1082 00:58:43,436 --> 00:58:46,997 No. I know they do. 1083 00:58:47,073 --> 00:58:51,100 I know she does. Tell her that I... 1084 00:58:51,177 --> 00:58:53,008 Can I call you back? 1085 00:58:53,079 --> 00:58:57,015 No. Then tell her I think it's going to be fine. 1086 00:58:57,083 --> 00:59:00,519 Tell her just hold on, and I... 1087 00:59:00,587 --> 00:59:03,021 Can I get back to you? 1088 00:59:03,089 --> 00:59:04,420 Well, no, no, no. 1089 00:59:04,491 --> 00:59:07,119 We're taking the house. No, no, no. 1090 00:59:07,193 --> 00:59:11,027 It's not a question of refunding the deposit. 1091 00:59:11,097 --> 00:59:14,260 Yes, I know the committee is about to meet. 1092 00:59:14,334 --> 00:59:16,768 I'm dealing with the complaint. 1093 00:59:16,836 --> 00:59:21,034 Yes, right now. Which is why I... 1094 00:59:21,107 --> 00:59:23,541 Call Jerry. And I can't talk now. 1095 00:59:23,610 --> 00:59:25,840 Fine. Good-bye. 1096 00:59:41,394 --> 00:59:43,555 I'm sorry that we were interrupted. 1097 00:59:43,630 --> 00:59:45,894 - One moment. - I was saying... 1098 00:59:45,965 --> 00:59:48,991 You said that we should agree to talk about my complaint. 1099 00:59:49,068 --> 00:59:51,866 - That's correct. - But we are talking about it. 1100 00:59:51,938 --> 00:59:55,374 That's correct, too. This is the gist of education... 1101 00:59:55,441 --> 00:59:57,841 We're talking about it at the tenure committee hearing. 1102 00:59:57,911 --> 00:59:59,139 Yes, but I'm saying... 1103 00:59:59,212 --> 01:00:01,009 We can talk about it now as easily... 1104 01:00:01,080 --> 01:00:02,725 No. I think we should stick to the process... 1105 01:00:02,749 --> 01:00:03,943 Wait a minute. 1106 01:00:04,017 --> 01:00:06,781 The conventional process, as you said. 1107 01:00:06,853 --> 01:00:11,222 And you're right. I'm sorry if I was... 1108 01:00:11,291 --> 01:00:13,282 If I was discourteous to you. You're right. 1109 01:00:13,359 --> 01:00:16,328 - Wait a moment. - I really should go. 1110 01:00:16,396 --> 01:00:18,523 Granted, I have an interest in the status quo. 1111 01:00:18,598 --> 01:00:20,327 All right. Everybody does. 1112 01:00:20,400 --> 01:00:22,630 But what I'm saying is that the committee... 1113 01:00:22,702 --> 01:00:25,728 Professor, you're right. Just don't impinge on me. 1114 01:00:25,805 --> 01:00:27,950 - We'll take our differences... - Look, you're going... 1115 01:00:27,974 --> 01:00:29,351 I shouldn't have come here. They told me... 1116 01:00:29,375 --> 01:00:31,240 Wait one moment. No, no! 1117 01:00:31,311 --> 01:00:33,802 There are norms here. And there's no reason... 1118 01:00:33,880 --> 01:00:35,404 I'm trying to save you... 1119 01:00:35,481 --> 01:00:38,041 You're trying to save me? Do me the courtesy... 1120 01:00:38,117 --> 01:00:40,517 I am doing you the courtesy. I'm talking straight to you. 1121 01:00:40,587 --> 01:00:42,282 We can settle this now. 1122 01:00:42,355 --> 01:00:44,880 - I want you to sit down. - You must excuse me. 1123 01:00:44,958 --> 01:00:47,256 No, just sit down! 1124 01:00:47,327 --> 01:00:51,388 It seems each of us... Wait one moment. 1125 01:00:51,464 --> 01:00:52,775 - Let me go! - Just do me the courtesy! 1126 01:00:52,799 --> 01:00:54,323 Let me go! Get your hands off me! 1127 01:00:54,400 --> 01:00:56,027 What are you getting so excited about? 1128 01:00:56,102 --> 01:00:57,330 Will somebody help me please? 1129 01:00:57,403 --> 01:00:59,428 Will you please? 1130 01:00:59,505 --> 01:01:01,336 Would somebody help me, please! 1131 01:01:05,878 --> 01:01:07,971 Can I speak to you for a moment, please? 1132 01:01:32,272 --> 01:01:34,069 OK. 1133 01:02:25,925 --> 01:02:28,257 Excuse me. 1134 01:02:28,328 --> 01:02:31,593 Can you make a large-sized poster? 1135 01:03:30,590 --> 01:03:32,615 I... I... 1136 01:03:32,692 --> 01:03:35,456 I have asked you here... 1137 01:03:35,528 --> 01:03:39,692 I have asked you here against my... 1138 01:03:39,766 --> 01:03:41,700 I was most surprised you asked me here. 1139 01:03:41,768 --> 01:03:43,201 Against my better judgment. 1140 01:03:43,269 --> 01:03:47,330 - I was most surprised. - Yes, I'm sure. 1141 01:03:47,407 --> 01:03:50,274 If you would like me to leave, I'll go right now. 1142 01:03:50,343 --> 01:03:53,369 Let us begin correctly. May we? I feel... 1143 01:03:53,446 --> 01:03:55,607 That is what I wish to do. That's why I came here... 1144 01:03:55,681 --> 01:03:57,376 but now perhaps you'd like me to leave. 1145 01:03:57,450 --> 01:04:00,544 I don't want you to leave! I asked you to come. 1146 01:04:00,620 --> 01:04:02,588 I didn't have to come here. 1147 01:04:02,655 --> 01:04:05,055 No. 1148 01:04:05,124 --> 01:04:06,648 Thank you. 1149 01:04:14,634 --> 01:04:16,067 All right. 1150 01:04:17,637 --> 01:04:21,038 Although I feel it profits... 1151 01:04:21,107 --> 01:04:22,734 that it would profit you something... 1152 01:04:22,809 --> 01:04:25,869 - What I... - if you would hear me out! 1153 01:04:25,945 --> 01:04:27,242 I came here to. 1154 01:04:27,313 --> 01:04:29,611 The court officers told me not to come. 1155 01:04:29,682 --> 01:04:31,843 - The court officers? - I'm shocked that you asked. 1156 01:04:31,918 --> 01:04:35,285 But I did not come here to hear what it profits me. 1157 01:04:35,354 --> 01:04:38,050 - The court officers? - Perhaps I should leave. 1158 01:04:38,124 --> 01:04:41,252 - I shouldn't have... - Wait! Wait a moment! 1159 01:04:41,327 --> 01:04:42,760 Will you please? 1160 01:04:42,829 --> 01:04:47,061 What is it you want? 1161 01:04:47,133 --> 01:04:48,691 I would like you to stay. 1162 01:04:48,768 --> 01:04:50,235 You want me to stay. 1163 01:04:50,303 --> 01:04:51,736 - Yes. - You do. 1164 01:04:51,804 --> 01:04:54,466 I would like you to hear me out. If you would. 1165 01:04:54,540 --> 01:04:57,907 Would you? Please. 1166 01:04:57,977 --> 01:05:00,468 If you would do that, I would be in your debt. 1167 01:05:03,916 --> 01:05:05,383 Thank you. 1168 01:05:08,120 --> 01:05:10,554 What is it you wish to tell me? 1169 01:05:10,623 --> 01:05:12,557 I cannot... 1170 01:05:12,625 --> 01:05:15,822 I cannot help but feel you are owed an apology. 1171 01:05:17,630 --> 01:05:20,690 I have read and reread these accusations... 1172 01:05:20,766 --> 01:05:22,165 What accusations? 1173 01:05:22,235 --> 01:05:26,262 The tenure commit... What other accusations? 1174 01:05:26,339 --> 01:05:29,672 The tenure committee? Those are not accusations. 1175 01:05:29,742 --> 01:05:32,267 They have been proved. They are facts. 1176 01:05:32,345 --> 01:05:34,472 Those are not accusations. 1177 01:05:34,547 --> 01:05:37,277 - Those? - The committee has... 1178 01:05:37,350 --> 01:05:40,217 Those are not accusations. The tenure committee has... 1179 01:05:40,286 --> 01:05:42,186 All right, all right! 1180 01:06:09,582 --> 01:06:13,040 Hello. Yes. 1181 01:06:13,119 --> 01:06:16,555 No, I'm here. Tell Mis... 1182 01:06:16,622 --> 01:06:18,487 No, I have no time to... 1183 01:06:18,558 --> 01:06:21,994 I'm sure he has, but I'm fine. 1184 01:06:22,061 --> 01:06:24,029 No, I have no time... 1185 01:06:24,096 --> 01:06:27,088 Tell Mis... Tell Mister... 1186 01:06:27,166 --> 01:06:32,035 Tell Jerry that I'm fine and I'll call him right away. 1187 01:06:32,104 --> 01:06:34,072 My wife. Yes. 1188 01:06:34,140 --> 01:06:36,074 I'm sure she has. Yes. 1189 01:06:36,142 --> 01:06:37,575 Thank you. Yes. 1190 01:06:37,643 --> 01:06:39,577 I'll call her, too. 1191 01:06:39,645 --> 01:06:41,943 I cannot talk to you now. 1192 01:06:58,097 --> 01:07:01,032 All right. It was good of you to come. 1193 01:07:01,100 --> 01:07:03,534 Thank you. 1194 01:07:03,603 --> 01:07:05,537 I have studied... 1195 01:07:05,605 --> 01:07:08,540 I have spent some time studying the indictment. 1196 01:07:08,608 --> 01:07:11,270 You'll have to explain that word to me. 1197 01:07:11,344 --> 01:07:13,539 - An indictment? - Yes. 1198 01:07:13,613 --> 01:07:15,444 Is a bill of particulars... 1199 01:07:15,514 --> 01:07:17,709 - All right. Yes. - In which is alleged... 1200 01:07:17,783 --> 01:07:20,251 No. I cannot allow that. 1201 01:07:20,319 --> 01:07:23,186 Nothing is alleged. Everything is proved. 1202 01:07:23,255 --> 01:07:25,985 - Please, wait a second. - I cannot allow that. 1203 01:07:26,058 --> 01:07:28,253 If I may? From whatever you feel is established... 1204 01:07:28,327 --> 01:07:30,454 The issue here is not what I feel. 1205 01:07:30,529 --> 01:07:31,894 It is not my feelings... 1206 01:07:31,964 --> 01:07:35,058 but the feelings of women and men, your superiors... 1207 01:07:35,134 --> 01:07:36,726 who have been polled... 1208 01:07:36,802 --> 01:07:38,895 and have ruled that you are negligent... 1209 01:07:38,971 --> 01:07:42,236 that you are guilty and are not to be given tenure... 1210 01:07:42,308 --> 01:07:44,242 that you are to be disciplined. 1211 01:07:44,310 --> 01:07:46,744 That is what the tenure committee has said. 1212 01:07:46,812 --> 01:07:50,578 That is what my lawyer said, for what you did in class... 1213 01:07:50,650 --> 01:07:52,515 for what you did in that office. 1214 01:07:52,585 --> 01:07:55,019 They're going to discharge me. 1215 01:07:55,087 --> 01:07:57,112 As full well they should! 1216 01:08:00,593 --> 01:08:03,027 You don't understand. Fine. 1217 01:08:03,095 --> 01:08:04,858 What has led you to this point? 1218 01:08:04,930 --> 01:08:07,592 Not your sex, not your race, not your class. 1219 01:08:07,667 --> 01:08:09,726 Your own actions. And you're angry. 1220 01:08:09,802 --> 01:08:11,599 You ask me here. What do you want? 1221 01:08:11,671 --> 01:08:14,799 You want to charm me. You want to convince me. 1222 01:08:14,874 --> 01:08:18,037 You want me to recant. I will not recant. 1223 01:08:18,110 --> 01:08:19,543 Why should I? What I say is right. 1224 01:08:19,612 --> 01:08:23,548 You were going to tell me that you have a wife and child... 1225 01:08:23,616 --> 01:08:25,550 that you have a career... 1226 01:08:25,618 --> 01:08:28,553 and that you've worked for 20 years for this. 1227 01:08:28,621 --> 01:08:30,555 Do you know what you've worked for? 1228 01:08:30,623 --> 01:08:34,559 Power! For power. Do you understand? 1229 01:08:34,627 --> 01:08:38,063 And you sit there and tell me stories about your house... 1230 01:08:38,130 --> 01:08:40,291 and all about private schools and privilege... 1231 01:08:40,366 --> 01:08:44,063 and how you are entitled to buy, to spend... 1232 01:08:44,136 --> 01:08:48,072 to mock, to summon. All your stories. 1233 01:08:54,880 --> 01:08:58,145 All your silly, weak guilt. 1234 01:08:58,217 --> 01:09:00,515 It's all about privilege... 1235 01:09:00,586 --> 01:09:02,918 and you won't know it. Don't you see? 1236 01:09:02,988 --> 01:09:05,821 You've worked twenty years for the right to insult me. 1237 01:09:05,891 --> 01:09:09,327 And you feel entitled to be paid for it. 1238 01:09:09,395 --> 01:09:10,828 Your home, your wife... 1239 01:09:10,896 --> 01:09:12,830 your sweet deposit on your house. 1240 01:09:12,898 --> 01:09:15,128 Don't you have feelings? 1241 01:09:15,201 --> 01:09:17,396 That's my point, you see... 1242 01:09:17,470 --> 01:09:19,233 "Don't you have feelings?" 1243 01:09:19,305 --> 01:09:20,738 Your final argument... 1244 01:09:20,806 --> 01:09:24,003 I don't take your side, you question if I'm human. 1245 01:09:24,076 --> 01:09:25,441 Don't you have feelings? 1246 01:09:25,511 --> 01:09:26,944 I have a responsibility... 1247 01:09:27,012 --> 01:09:29,674 - To? - This institution. 1248 01:09:29,749 --> 01:09:31,580 To the students, to my group. 1249 01:09:31,650 --> 01:09:33,140 - Your group? - Yes. 1250 01:09:33,219 --> 01:09:37,246 Because I speak, not for myself, but for the group. 1251 01:09:37,323 --> 01:09:39,518 For those who suffer what I suffer... 1252 01:09:39,592 --> 01:09:42,254 on behalf of whom, even if I were inclined to... 1253 01:09:42,328 --> 01:09:47,129 Forgive? Forget? Overlook your... 1254 01:09:47,199 --> 01:09:50,134 - My behavior? - It would be wrong. 1255 01:09:50,202 --> 01:09:51,829 Even if you were inclined to forgive me? 1256 01:09:51,904 --> 01:09:54,372 - It would be wrong. - And what would transpire? 1257 01:09:54,440 --> 01:09:55,634 - Transpire? - Yes. 1258 01:09:55,708 --> 01:09:57,369 - Happen? - Yes. 1259 01:09:57,443 --> 01:09:59,308 Then say it, for Christ's sake! 1260 01:09:59,378 --> 01:10:01,437 Who the hell do you think that you are? 1261 01:10:01,514 --> 01:10:03,812 You want a post... 1262 01:10:03,883 --> 01:10:07,410 you want unlimited power to do and say what you want... 1263 01:10:07,486 --> 01:10:10,114 as it pleases you... testing, questioning... 1264 01:10:10,189 --> 01:10:11,622 - Flirting... - I never... 1265 01:10:11,690 --> 01:10:14,158 Excuse me one moment, will you? 1266 01:10:20,566 --> 01:10:24,468 "The 12th. Have a good day, dear." 1267 01:10:25,905 --> 01:10:28,965 "The 15th. Now, don't you look fetching." 1268 01:10:29,041 --> 01:10:32,977 "April 17th. If you girls would come over here..." 1269 01:10:33,045 --> 01:10:35,513 I saw you. 1270 01:10:35,581 --> 01:10:38,675 I saw you, Professor, for the entire semester... 1271 01:10:38,751 --> 01:10:40,343 sit there, stand there... 1272 01:10:40,419 --> 01:10:43,684 and exploit your paternal prerogative. 1273 01:10:43,756 --> 01:10:46,816 And what is that but rape, I swear to God? 1274 01:10:49,028 --> 01:10:51,963 You asked me in here to explain something to me... 1275 01:10:52,031 --> 01:10:53,965 that I did not understand... 1276 01:10:54,033 --> 01:10:56,627 but I came here to explain something to you. 1277 01:10:56,702 --> 01:10:58,636 You are not God. 1278 01:10:58,704 --> 01:11:01,138 You ask me why I came? 1279 01:11:01,207 --> 01:11:03,175 I came here to instruct you. 1280 01:11:05,211 --> 01:11:07,236 And your book. 1281 01:11:07,313 --> 01:11:10,146 You want to talk about your book? 1282 01:11:10,216 --> 01:11:13,185 You think you're going to show me some light? 1283 01:11:14,386 --> 01:11:17,116 You maverick, outside of tradition. 1284 01:11:17,189 --> 01:11:18,417 No, no... 1285 01:11:18,490 --> 01:11:21,755 of that fine tradition of inquiry... 1286 01:11:21,827 --> 01:11:23,920 of polite skepticism. 1287 01:11:23,996 --> 01:11:28,365 And you say you believe in free intellectual discourse? 1288 01:11:28,434 --> 01:11:30,334 You believe in nothing. 1289 01:11:30,402 --> 01:11:32,495 You believe in nothing at all. 1290 01:11:32,571 --> 01:11:35,005 I believe in freedom of thought. 1291 01:11:35,074 --> 01:11:36,769 Isn't that fine? Do you? 1292 01:11:36,842 --> 01:11:38,002 Yes, I do. 1293 01:11:38,077 --> 01:11:39,942 Then why do you question for one moment... 1294 01:11:40,012 --> 01:11:42,537 the committee's decision refusing your tenure? 1295 01:11:42,615 --> 01:11:45,049 Why do you question your suspension? 1296 01:11:45,117 --> 01:11:48,177 You believe in what you call freedom of thought... 1297 01:11:48,254 --> 01:11:49,448 then fine. 1298 01:11:49,521 --> 01:11:52,649 You believe in freedom of thought and a home... 1299 01:11:52,725 --> 01:11:55,956 and prerogatives for your kid and tenure. 1300 01:11:56,028 --> 01:11:57,256 And I'm going to tell you... 1301 01:11:57,329 --> 01:11:59,490 that you believe not in freedom of thought... 1302 01:11:59,565 --> 01:12:00,998 but in an elitist... 1303 01:12:01,066 --> 01:12:04,502 in a protected hierarchy which rewards you. 1304 01:12:05,537 --> 01:12:08,472 And for whom you are the clown. 1305 01:12:08,540 --> 01:12:13,136 You mock and exploit the system which pays your rent. 1306 01:12:13,212 --> 01:12:14,702 You're wrong. 1307 01:12:14,780 --> 01:12:16,247 I'm not wrong. 1308 01:12:17,883 --> 01:12:19,350 You're wrong. 1309 01:12:27,259 --> 01:12:29,853 You think that I'm full of hatred. 1310 01:12:29,929 --> 01:12:32,295 I know what you think I am. 1311 01:12:32,364 --> 01:12:33,490 Do you? 1312 01:12:33,565 --> 01:12:35,999 Of course I do. 1313 01:12:36,068 --> 01:12:39,834 You think I'm a frightened, repressed, confused... 1314 01:12:39,905 --> 01:12:43,500 abandoned young thing of some doubtful sexuality... 1315 01:12:43,575 --> 01:12:46,476 who wants power and revenge, don't you? 1316 01:12:48,013 --> 01:12:49,913 Yes, I do. 1317 01:12:51,517 --> 01:12:53,951 Isn't that better? 1318 01:12:54,019 --> 01:12:56,954 And I feel that that is the first moment... 1319 01:12:57,022 --> 01:12:59,718 which you've treated me with respect. 1320 01:12:59,792 --> 01:13:02,226 For you told me the truth. 1321 01:13:02,294 --> 01:13:06,196 I did not come here, as you are assured, to gloat. 1322 01:13:06,265 --> 01:13:07,527 Why would I want to gloat? 1323 01:13:07,599 --> 01:13:11,228 I've profited nothing from, as you say, your misfortune. 1324 01:13:11,303 --> 01:13:13,362 I came here... 1325 01:13:13,439 --> 01:13:17,398 as you did me the honor to ask me here. 1326 01:13:17,476 --> 01:13:19,910 I came here to tell you something... 1327 01:13:19,979 --> 01:13:22,641 If I may... 1328 01:13:22,715 --> 01:13:24,182 that I think... 1329 01:13:25,718 --> 01:13:28,152 that I think you've been wrong. 1330 01:13:28,220 --> 01:13:31,485 That I think you've been terribly wrong. 1331 01:13:31,557 --> 01:13:33,684 Do you hate me now? 1332 01:13:33,759 --> 01:13:37,092 - Yes. - Listen to me, Professor. 1333 01:13:37,162 --> 01:13:39,596 It is the power that you hate so deeply... 1334 01:13:39,665 --> 01:13:42,964 that any atmosphere of free discussion is impossible. 1335 01:13:43,035 --> 01:13:45,970 It's not unlikely. It's impossible, isn't it? 1336 01:13:46,038 --> 01:13:49,132 - Isn't it? - Yes, I suppose. 1337 01:13:49,208 --> 01:13:51,142 Now the thing which you find so cruel... 1338 01:13:51,210 --> 01:13:53,405 is the self-same process of selection... 1339 01:13:53,479 --> 01:13:57,347 that I and my group go through every day of our lives... 1340 01:13:57,416 --> 01:13:58,542 in admittance to school... 1341 01:13:58,617 --> 01:14:00,812 in our tests, in our class rankings. 1342 01:14:04,590 --> 01:14:07,525 You write that education is just hazing. 1343 01:14:07,593 --> 01:14:10,562 But we work to get to this school... 1344 01:14:10,629 --> 01:14:12,324 and some of us overcame prejudices... 1345 01:14:12,398 --> 01:14:15,834 economic, sexual... you cannot begin to imagine... 1346 01:14:15,901 --> 01:14:19,701 and endured humiliations that I pray you and those you love... 1347 01:14:19,772 --> 01:14:23,071 never will encounter to gain admittance here... 1348 01:14:23,142 --> 01:14:27,374 to pursue that same dream of security you pursue... 1349 01:14:27,446 --> 01:14:28,572 we, who are at any moment... 1350 01:14:28,647 --> 01:14:31,582 in danger of being deprived of it. 1351 01:14:31,650 --> 01:14:32,776 By? 1352 01:14:32,851 --> 01:14:35,581 By the administration, by the teachers, by you. 1353 01:14:35,654 --> 01:14:39,750 By one low grade that keeps us out of graduate school. 1354 01:14:39,825 --> 01:14:43,022 By one capricious or inventive answer on our parts... 1355 01:14:43,095 --> 01:14:45,359 which perhaps you don't find amusing. 1356 01:14:45,431 --> 01:14:48,923 I don't understand! 1357 01:14:49,001 --> 01:14:51,561 My charges are not trivial. 1358 01:14:51,637 --> 01:14:54,936 You see that in the haste with which they were accepted. 1359 01:14:55,007 --> 01:14:57,202 A joke you have told with a sexist tinge. 1360 01:14:57,276 --> 01:14:59,437 The language you use. 1361 01:14:59,511 --> 01:15:02,378 A verbal or physical caress. Yes, I know. 1362 01:15:02,448 --> 01:15:04,712 You say it's meaningless. I understand. 1363 01:15:04,783 --> 01:15:06,512 I differ from you. 1364 01:15:06,585 --> 01:15:08,553 To lay a hand on someone's shoulder... 1365 01:15:08,620 --> 01:15:10,747 It was devoid of sexual content... 1366 01:15:10,823 --> 01:15:14,418 I say it was not! 1367 01:15:14,493 --> 01:15:16,927 Don't you begin to see, to understand... 1368 01:15:16,995 --> 01:15:19,793 that it is not for you to say. 1369 01:15:19,865 --> 01:15:21,298 I take your point. 1370 01:15:21,366 --> 01:15:24,301 I see there is much good in what you refer to. 1371 01:15:24,369 --> 01:15:25,631 Do you think so? 1372 01:15:25,704 --> 01:15:29,140 But, not to say that I cannot change in those things... 1373 01:15:29,208 --> 01:15:30,800 where I am deficient, but... 1374 01:15:30,876 --> 01:15:32,309 Do you hold yourself harmless... 1375 01:15:32,377 --> 01:15:34,057 from the charge of sexual exploitativeness? 1376 01:15:34,113 --> 01:15:36,946 I have to tell you... 1377 01:15:37,015 --> 01:15:40,951 as I said, I think I am not too old to learn. 1378 01:15:41,019 --> 01:15:42,452 And I can learn. 1379 01:15:42,521 --> 01:15:43,954 Do you hold yourself innocent? 1380 01:15:44,022 --> 01:15:46,650 Wait, wait, wait! Let's go back... 1381 01:15:46,725 --> 01:15:48,056 No! You fool! 1382 01:15:48,127 --> 01:15:51,221 Who do you think I am, to be taken in by a smile? 1383 01:15:51,296 --> 01:15:54,561 You little yapping fool. You think I want revenge? 1384 01:15:54,633 --> 01:15:58,034 I don't want revenge. I want understanding. 1385 01:15:58,103 --> 01:16:00,094 - Do you? - I do. 1386 01:16:02,074 --> 01:16:04,702 What's the use? It's over. 1387 01:16:09,148 --> 01:16:10,979 Is it? What is? 1388 01:16:12,417 --> 01:16:13,577 My job. 1389 01:16:16,722 --> 01:16:19,520 Your job. 1390 01:16:19,591 --> 01:16:22,560 That's what you want to talk about. 1391 01:16:50,389 --> 01:16:52,823 All right. What if it were possible... 1392 01:16:52,891 --> 01:16:54,984 my group withdraws its complaint? 1393 01:16:55,060 --> 01:16:57,028 - What? - That's right. 1394 01:16:58,964 --> 01:17:00,158 Why? 1395 01:17:00,232 --> 01:17:02,757 Let's say, as an act of friendship. 1396 01:17:02,834 --> 01:17:04,495 - An act of friendship? - Yes. 1397 01:17:04,570 --> 01:17:05,935 In exchange for what? 1398 01:17:06,004 --> 01:17:07,767 Yes, but I don't think an exchange... 1399 01:17:07,839 --> 01:17:10,273 for what do we derive from it? 1400 01:17:10,342 --> 01:17:11,468 - Derive? - Yes. 1401 01:17:11,543 --> 01:17:12,840 - Nothing. - That's right. 1402 01:17:12,911 --> 01:17:14,503 We derive nothing. Do you see that? 1403 01:17:14,580 --> 01:17:16,878 - Yes. - That's a little word. 1404 01:17:16,949 --> 01:17:19,042 "Yes-I-see-that," but you will. 1405 01:17:21,753 --> 01:17:24,187 You might speak to the committee? 1406 01:17:24,256 --> 01:17:25,689 To the committee? 1407 01:17:25,757 --> 01:17:27,622 Yes. 1408 01:17:27,693 --> 01:17:30,423 Of course that's on your mind, we might. 1409 01:17:30,495 --> 01:17:31,655 If what? 1410 01:17:31,730 --> 01:17:34,392 Given what? That is more friendly. 1411 01:17:34,466 --> 01:17:35,831 Given what? 1412 01:17:35,901 --> 01:17:39,302 And, believe me, I understand your rage. 1413 01:17:39,371 --> 01:17:40,611 It's not that I don't feel it... 1414 01:17:40,639 --> 01:17:42,197 but I do not see that it is deserved... 1415 01:17:42,274 --> 01:17:45,266 so I do not resent it. 1416 01:17:45,344 --> 01:17:47,039 All right. I have a list. 1417 01:17:47,112 --> 01:17:48,545 A list. 1418 01:17:48,614 --> 01:17:52,448 Here is a list of books which we find questionable. 1419 01:17:55,721 --> 01:17:57,018 What? 1420 01:17:57,089 --> 01:17:59,353 - Is this so bizarre? - I can't believe... 1421 01:17:59,424 --> 01:18:01,358 It's not necessary you believe it. 1422 01:18:01,426 --> 01:18:04,190 - Academic freedom... - Someone chooses the books. 1423 01:18:04,263 --> 01:18:05,924 If you can choose them, others can. 1424 01:18:05,998 --> 01:18:08,694 - What are you, God? - No. The dangerous... 1425 01:18:08,767 --> 01:18:11,167 You have an agenda. We have an agenda. 1426 01:18:11,236 --> 01:18:13,033 I'm not interested in your feelings... 1427 01:18:13,105 --> 01:18:15,164 or your motivation, but your actions. 1428 01:18:15,240 --> 01:18:17,708 If you would like me to speak to the tenure committee... 1429 01:18:17,776 --> 01:18:19,038 here is my list. 1430 01:18:19,111 --> 01:18:21,773 You are a free person. You decide. 1431 01:18:28,654 --> 01:18:29,814 I think you'll find... 1432 01:18:29,888 --> 01:18:32,356 I'm capable of reading it, thank you. 1433 01:18:32,424 --> 01:18:34,255 We have a number of texts we need reviewed. 1434 01:18:34,326 --> 01:18:35,657 I see that. 1435 01:18:35,727 --> 01:18:37,592 We're amenable to anything that... 1436 01:18:37,663 --> 01:18:39,961 - Let me look over... - I think you should... 1437 01:18:40,032 --> 01:18:43,524 I'm reading your demands, all right? 1438 01:18:58,550 --> 01:19:00,484 You want to ban my book. 1439 01:19:00,552 --> 01:19:02,486 - We do not. - It says here... 1440 01:19:02,554 --> 01:19:03,898 We want it removed from inclusion... 1441 01:19:03,922 --> 01:19:06,550 as a representative example of the university. 1442 01:19:06,625 --> 01:19:07,751 Get out of here. 1443 01:19:07,826 --> 01:19:09,170 If you put aside the issue of personality... 1444 01:19:09,194 --> 01:19:11,253 Get the fuck out of my office! 1445 01:19:11,330 --> 01:19:12,627 I would reconsider. 1446 01:19:12,698 --> 01:19:15,223 - You think that you can... - We can, and we will. 1447 01:19:15,300 --> 01:19:17,825 Do you want our support? That is the only question. 1448 01:19:17,903 --> 01:19:19,303 - To ban my book? - That is correct. 1449 01:19:19,371 --> 01:19:22,829 - This is a university. - And we have a statement. 1450 01:19:22,908 --> 01:19:24,034 We have a statement. 1451 01:19:24,109 --> 01:19:27,636 No! It's out of the question! 1452 01:19:27,713 --> 01:19:29,578 I'm sorry! I'm sorry! 1453 01:19:29,648 --> 01:19:31,081 I don't know what was I thinking of. 1454 01:19:31,149 --> 01:19:32,411 I'll tell you something. 1455 01:19:32,484 --> 01:19:35,078 I'm a teacher. 1456 01:19:35,153 --> 01:19:37,121 It's my name on the door... 1457 01:19:37,189 --> 01:19:39,089 and I teach the class. That's what I do. 1458 01:19:39,157 --> 01:19:41,455 I have a book with my name on it... 1459 01:19:41,526 --> 01:19:44,586 and my son will see that book someday. 1460 01:19:44,663 --> 01:19:46,494 And I have a respons... 1461 01:19:48,033 --> 01:19:51,332 No. I'm sorry. I have a responsibility... 1462 01:19:51,403 --> 01:19:54,770 to myself, to my son, to my profession. 1463 01:19:54,840 --> 01:19:56,017 I haven't been home for two days. 1464 01:19:56,041 --> 01:19:58,305 You know that? Thinking this out. 1465 01:19:58,377 --> 01:19:59,742 You haven't? 1466 01:19:59,811 --> 01:20:03,508 If it's of interest you, I've been in a hotel thinking. 1467 01:20:03,582 --> 01:20:05,516 You haven't been home. 1468 01:20:05,584 --> 01:20:07,142 Thinking, you see? 1469 01:20:07,219 --> 01:20:10,518 And I owe you a debt. I see that now. 1470 01:20:10,589 --> 01:20:11,817 You're dangerous. 1471 01:20:11,890 --> 01:20:15,257 You're wrong and it is my job to say no to you. 1472 01:20:15,327 --> 01:20:17,522 And that is my job. That's right. 1473 01:20:17,596 --> 01:20:19,063 You're absolutely right. 1474 01:20:19,131 --> 01:20:20,655 You want to ban my book? 1475 01:20:20,732 --> 01:20:23,166 You can go to hell. 1476 01:20:23,235 --> 01:20:25,863 And they can do to me whatever they want. 1477 01:20:25,937 --> 01:20:28,064 You haven't been home in two days. 1478 01:20:28,140 --> 01:20:29,664 I think I told you that. 1479 01:20:29,741 --> 01:20:32,835 You better get that phone. 1480 01:20:39,818 --> 01:20:41,809 I think that you should pick up the phone. 1481 01:20:51,530 --> 01:20:53,464 Yes. 1482 01:20:53,532 --> 01:20:55,966 Yes. 1483 01:20:56,034 --> 01:21:00,664 Well, I had to be... Did you worry about me? 1484 01:21:01,873 --> 01:21:04,307 No, I'm fine. I'm fine, Jerry. 1485 01:21:04,376 --> 01:21:07,072 I got a little bit mixed up... 1486 01:21:07,145 --> 01:21:10,012 but I'm sitting here and I got it figured out. 1487 01:21:10,081 --> 01:21:11,981 I'm fine. Don't worry about me. 1488 01:21:12,050 --> 01:21:14,610 I got a little bit turned around... 1489 01:21:14,686 --> 01:21:16,119 but I'm sitting here... 1490 01:21:16,188 --> 01:21:19,123 and I'm not sure it's not a blessing. 1491 01:21:19,191 --> 01:21:20,783 Cost me my job, fine. 1492 01:21:20,859 --> 01:21:22,588 Then the job was not worth having. 1493 01:21:22,661 --> 01:21:25,129 Tell Grace I'm coming home. Everything's fine. 1494 01:21:27,966 --> 01:21:30,935 What? What do you mean? 1495 01:21:33,472 --> 01:21:35,269 Jerry... 1496 01:21:35,340 --> 01:21:38,639 Jerry, they... Who? Who? 1497 01:21:38,710 --> 01:21:40,837 What can they do? 1498 01:21:43,748 --> 01:21:45,375 They can't do that. 1499 01:21:47,018 --> 01:21:48,349 But how? 1500 01:21:50,355 --> 01:21:53,051 She's... She's here with me. 1501 01:21:54,860 --> 01:21:56,327 Jerry... 1502 01:21:59,197 --> 01:22:01,165 Jerry, I don't underst... 1503 01:22:03,368 --> 01:22:05,427 What does this mean? 1504 01:22:07,873 --> 01:22:09,363 I thought you knew. 1505 01:22:09,441 --> 01:22:12,239 What? What does it mean? 1506 01:22:15,881 --> 01:22:18,315 You tried to rape me. 1507 01:22:18,383 --> 01:22:20,408 According to the law. 1508 01:22:21,553 --> 01:22:23,714 What? 1509 01:22:23,788 --> 01:22:26,120 You tried to rape me. 1510 01:22:26,191 --> 01:22:29,024 I was leaving this office. You pressed yourself into me. 1511 01:22:29,094 --> 01:22:31,028 You pressed your body into me. 1512 01:22:31,096 --> 01:22:35,396 My group has told your lawyer we may pursue criminal charges. 1513 01:22:35,467 --> 01:22:37,935 Under the statute, I'm told, it was battery. 1514 01:22:38,003 --> 01:22:39,197 No. 1515 01:22:39,271 --> 01:22:41,466 Yes. And attempted rape. That's right. 1516 01:22:51,182 --> 01:22:52,649 Get out. 1517 01:22:55,353 --> 01:22:57,753 Of course, I thought you knew. 1518 01:22:59,658 --> 01:23:01,853 I have to talk to my lawyer. 1519 01:23:04,029 --> 01:23:06,293 Yes, perhaps you should. 1520 01:23:17,008 --> 01:23:18,134 Hello. I... 1521 01:23:18,209 --> 01:23:21,269 Hello. I... 1522 01:23:21,346 --> 01:23:23,007 Yes, he just called. 1523 01:23:25,216 --> 01:23:28,083 I can't talk now, baby. 1524 01:23:30,555 --> 01:23:32,853 - Get out. - Your wife? 1525 01:23:32,924 --> 01:23:34,551 Who it is is no concern of yours. 1526 01:23:34,626 --> 01:23:35,991 Get out. 1527 01:23:38,663 --> 01:23:40,494 I can't talk now, baby. 1528 01:23:41,566 --> 01:23:46,401 No, no, no. It's going to be fine. 1529 01:23:47,739 --> 01:23:49,206 Get out of here! 1530 01:23:49,274 --> 01:23:51,208 - I'm going. - Good. 1531 01:23:51,276 --> 01:23:53,403 And don't call your wife "baby." 1532 01:23:54,913 --> 01:23:56,574 What? 1533 01:23:56,648 --> 01:24:00,084 Don't call your wife "baby." You heard what I said. 1534 01:24:00,151 --> 01:24:02,278 You find that amusing? 1535 01:24:07,325 --> 01:24:09,850 No! 1536 01:24:09,928 --> 01:24:11,987 You vicious little bitch! 1537 01:24:12,063 --> 01:24:13,894 Come here. Come here. 1538 01:24:15,600 --> 01:24:16,897 Get... 1539 01:24:21,539 --> 01:24:23,473 - Come here! - No! 1540 01:24:23,541 --> 01:24:27,033 You think that you can... 1541 01:24:27,112 --> 01:24:29,979 destroy my life after how I've treated you! 1542 01:24:30,048 --> 01:24:31,743 Are you kidding me? 1543 01:24:34,419 --> 01:24:37,388 Yes? Yes? 1544 01:24:40,125 --> 01:24:41,422 Come here! 1545 01:24:47,198 --> 01:24:48,665 Rape you? 1546 01:24:55,874 --> 01:24:58,342 Rape you? Are you kidding me? 1547 01:24:59,444 --> 01:25:02,902 I wouldn't touch you with a 10-foot... 1548 01:25:05,083 --> 01:25:08,519 - You little cunt! - Don't! Don't! 1549 01:25:38,116 --> 01:25:39,743 Oh, my God. 1550 01:25:39,767 --> 01:25:42,767 chebinhdan.com 1551 01:26:00,071 --> 01:26:01,868 Oh, my God. 1552 01:26:04,509 --> 01:26:06,477 Yes, that's right.